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Flustered

In public, I do subtle things when flustered... But when I'm alone, I do a bunch of things to express my nervousness.

In public, I laugh, smile, cover my face, usual and stereotypical things. Depending on who made me flustered and how they did it, I might do other things. If they made a comment on something I did or maybe even on something I wore, I might smack them and whine, laugh and shake my head, yell at them and act annoyed, or cover my face, whine, and laugh. If they pointed out a mistake I made, I tend to be aggressive about it. If they do something awkward around me after I did something, I laugh nervously. If they flirt with me, I get aggressive or shyly (sometimes my voice laced with disgust) say "thanks". I get flustered often, so these actions are said to make me "cute".

However, sometimes  someone can make me flustered to an extreme. When that happens, I tend to cover my face and scream or laugh (mostly scream). If the person who made me flustered is not around, I still cover my face and scream, but I also say things like " Waa!! My heart is racing!! Ahahahaaa!!!", "........ Is going to be the death of me!!", " I need help!! ", etc. I don't tend to be flustered like that, but certain people can get me into that state, which is actually extremely rare up until now. Now, a certain someone can made me flustered just at the mere thought of them (Ellebloodgem, you might know who I'm talking about. Keep it a secret~)

Now!! When by myself, I act extremely different!

If I'm laying on my bed -

I curl up in a ball while pulling my hair, then arch my back and bite my lip. I quickly get up and bite my hand or lip again. I curl back up into a ball while covering my face. I move around everywhere. It try everything I can to not be flustered, but depending on what caused me to be flustered, it's hard.

If a person made me flustered (*cough*) then I tend to have an obsession with what they did and continue to be flustered for several minutes. I'll move my legs a lot and try to hide. Sometimes I just cover my mouth, bite my lip, or pull my hair if the person not only made me flustered, but made my heart pound like there's no tomorrow.  I like the feeling of my heart racing, so I obsess over what they did even more.

If something else made me flustered, like a story, I move less. I can calm down a lot faster than if a person made me flustered.

If I'm standing or sitting -

No matter if a person or thing made me flustered, I do the same thing. I move my hands a lot. I can't keep my hands still and I usually ended up having one rest on my waist for a few seconds or I'm pulling my hair. I tend to have my hands near my face and I open and close my mouth at a loss for words.

If a person made me flustered, I also obsess over the action that made me that way. I stay flustered for an extremely long time as well.

If something else made me flustered, I'm flustered as long, but it's still a pretty long time.

Anyways!! Thank you and

Ciao and Annyeong~!!