Random Thoughts

Clothes

I feel bad for those girls whose clothes get tighter as they grow. Mine get bigger.

Y'all might already know, but I have low self-esteem and self confidence. Well that shit is changing (slowly), WOO!

I remember, when I was younger, I would always complain, saying I was never pretty and I never looked good, sometimes even get really down because I thought I was overweight. Well nope. For one, I can see my rips and hip bones and I don't think anybody overweight can see their ribs and hip bones. Second of all, my clothes don't fit me anymore because they've gotten too big. I'm pretty sure that doesn't happen to overweight people either. I think one of the key things about my weight is the fact that I can't seem to lose any of it (for fucks sake) nor can I seem to gain any. I'm not exactly tall, but I'm not done growing taller yet (fuck yeah), so that contributes to my size as well. I'm around 5'2" or 5'3" (idk, I haven't measured my height in forever) so yeah.

But what I wanted to talk about is my pants!! Most girls have the issue of their pants getting tighter, while I quietly sit here and try to see how many hands I can fit in between my hip and my pants. I'll buy a pair of pants that fit me nicely, but after a year (sometimes a few months), boom, they're too big. I can fit about four hands into one of my pairs of pants (don't ask me how I know) but when I first got them, I couldn't fit any of my hands in there. I consider it saddening. I can't wear the clothes I wore in 4th grade because they're too big.

Many people might be like "Holy shit! I wish that happened to me" but trust me, you don't. It makes shopping a hassle!! You can't buy tight clothes because they aren't even tight on you in the first place. I fucking bought skinny jeans awhile ago and they're already too lose to fit my waist. Pfft, what are skinny jeans?! I only know baggy pants!! You can't do what most people can, were they buy a few sizes larger so that the clothes last longer. No!! You can't find any sizes smaller because it'll be too short and then it's like "wtf? Are they supposed to be japris (jean capris)"?! No, they were supposed to be skinny jeans!!! AAAHHH!!!

sorry... Anyways!! Thank you and...

Ciao and Annyeong~!