Club Fucked Up

Why Doesn't He Know

September 29,1989
1:00 a.m.
   "OH MY GOD!" I scream as I bolt up and hit my head on JD's chin. A sudden surge of pain rushes through out my skull. Oh son of a bitch!
   "Veronica! Are you ok?" JD asked with so much concern in his voice.a feeling of being shot surged through his jaw but he payed no attention to it, all he could focus on was her.
   "Ronnie you're soaking wet! What happened?!"
   "Nothing nothing everything's fine. Just fucking perfect."I say as I burst into tears. It was a complete lie. My life's a fucking mess, all of it. Everything I do makes my life a living hell!
   "Ronnie, Ronnie it's all going to be ok come here and talk to me." JD says as he opens his arms like an invitation to a party that I dramatically left before it was over. (Something was really bothering her, she seems so distant but I can't tell why. She's normally so hard to read but she's not saying the safe word. What is wrong with her?)
   (So much pain! First to my stomach then to my head. Why was he being such an ass to me? None of this was my fault!
   "You stupid slut!")
   "Spot it! Stop it!" I shout, my face still being stained by hot tears.
   "Ronnie what? What is it?" He asked inquisitively. Like he didn't know! He's such a bastard, and to think I ever loved him!
   "Wait what? You were just hitting me, beating me and I was crying for help but you didn't care!" Was he joking? Did he really not know what the hell he just did to me?
   "Ronnie please I would never do that to you. Come here please you're still dripping with sweat."
   I can't help but give in. The thought of being in his arms gave me so much comfort, I'm craving the feeling of his fingers on my skin, but something about being close to him sends chills down my spine.
   "You are my sunshine my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know just how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." His voice as he starts to sing softly makes my heart melt like ice cream on a hot summer day and I can feel all of my muscles instantly relax as i melt into JD's chest once again.
   "Hello slut!" How the hell does she always appear!?
   "Damn it Heather." I whisper under my breath, praying to God JD doesn't hear.
   "Is mother bitch here again?" JD asked.
   "Excuse me Jesse James do you know who the hell you're talking to?" She said as she leaned inches away from his face but it's no use he can't see her.
   "So Veronica have you decided how you're going to tell him?" She says in a bitchy tone. I'm so sick of that fucking bitchy tone!
  "No I don't" I mutter staring down at my sheets.
   "Well you better fucking figure it out! You can't hide it for forever. What are you going to tell him, I'm getting fat?" Why is she such a fucking asshole all the time? I wish she knew that I didn't care about her fucking opinion, but now isn't the time to tell her. Not in front of JD. Fucking shit. I guess now is as good a time as any with me a mess and looking vulnerable in his arms.
   It takes all my strength that I have to lift my head and look into is beautiful brown eyes. I take one more shaky shallow breath before I feel like my life might end.
   "JD... Darling I have something that you need to know..."
   "Beautiful what is it?" The same concern is in his voice like in my dream, it's like fucking deja vu and it frightens she shit out of me!
   "I'm... I'm, um" my palms have suddenly become so cold and sweaty. I start to shake and JD's embrace becomes tighter and my heart feels like it's going to burst out of my chest!
  "You're what Ronnie?"
  "I'm pregnant." These words spill out of my mouth as fast as I can get them out and I leap out of his lap. Instantly covering my face terrified at what he might do to me next.

(Italicized text is JD's thoughts and the bolded text is a flashback just incase  you where confused, and the picture is a drawing I did and I thought it fit.)