I smiled widely as I receive my diploma. I'm really not into extra curricular activities kaya nung I-announce na counted sa Grades ang extra-curricular activities ay bumagsak ang mga braso ko.
If academic ang pagbabasehan, my rank would be sixth. Pero dahil may extra-curricular activities ay bumagsak ako sa tenth.
Hays, at least sa stage parin ako uupo. It is still an honor for me, out of 30 students ay pang-10 ako.
Graduation ended like a flash, merong mga umiyak, alam kasi namin na yung mga mukhang nakikita namin araw-araw within 6 years ay mawawala na the next opening.
"Group hug!" Sigaw ni Earl and we gathered up for a hug. "May we have a great and good future!"
"May we have it!"
Sooner or later I'll be stepping highschool and It's really making me nervous, what's life within there?
Napaisip ako bigla kay Rae, sa opening ay Grade 8 na siya, pareho kami ng edad yet advance siya.
Advance rin sana ako, if and only if wala akong sakit noon sa liver. It was hepatitis. Tsk. Goodness, buti at buhay padin ako hanggang ngayon. Hahaha. It was a whole academic year of not attending school for me.
Since naisip ko si Rae ay nagtuloy-tuloy na ang mga kabaliwan ko noon hahaha.
***Flashback***
It was another gathering within Mom and Dad's Organization.
Naka-upo lang ako sa seat ko habang may kung sino ang nagsasalita sa harapan and I'm not even listening.
Para mawala ang boredom ko ay nilibot ko ang mata ko, hinahanap ko si Rae. Nakita ko agad siya sa Second Floor, right side. He would always be on the second floor or maybe third.
Baliw na kung baliw pero palagi akong nakatitig sa kan'ya, minsan nahuhuli niya ako. I know that he is aware na nakatitig ako sa kan'ya.
Do he find me crazy now?
Nung lumingon ulit ako ay saktong napatingin siya sa gawi ko kaya nag-iwas ako ng tingin. Grrr!
***End of flashback***
I'm the weirdest, am I not? Hahaha. Kahit ngayon yata ay ginagawa ko parin ang pagtitig ko sa kan'ya.
Napalingon ako sa right side ng table ko, nakalagay doon ang pink kong camera. May naalala ulit ako. Hahaha.
***Flashback***
I'm holding my camera right now. Breathe in, breathe out. Kaya ko to! Just one picture of Rae ay matutuwa na ako! Kahit isang pic ay wala ako sa kan'ya ('Di pa uso ang facebook sa akin by this time)
Since nasa likod na part yung upuan nila ng parents niya ay makukuhaan siya ng camera ko.
They were just two lines away from our seat. Kaya hinarap ko na ang camera ko, pressed the capture button pero biglang nanlaki ang mata ko nung may pulang tumambad at tumutok kay Rae!
Gosh! The flash! It's on! My sound pa! Sa sobrang taranta ko ay napatingin ako ng straight sa harap dala ang camera.
Gosh! Hindi ako namalik-mata! Nakita kong napalingon siya sa akin! Dang flash, dang red light thingy, dang sound!
Nang tignan ko ang picture ay nanlumo ako, blur! Langya!
***End of flashback***
Napatawa ulit ako na parang baliw, sayang yung effort nun ah! Hahaha.
Tapos ay may naalala ulit ako na isa pang kabaliwan hahaha.
***Flashback***
Naka-handa na ang lahat ng candy na pinili ko talaga using my heart! Ew corny pero whatever nalang.
5 sila, each candy's quote differ from each other.
My isang nagsasabi nang, "Can I have a hug from you?"
The other's, "I like you so much, do you feel the same?"
And another, "Can you look at me, only me?"
And another, "I wish we feel the same way, don't you?"
And lastly, "I'm falling and I don't know how to stop."
So corny but whatever. I decided to write a note too or maybe a love letter or whatever it is called.
"Dear Rae, I like like like like you very very very much. Uhm, I really ain't asking for you to return the same feeling but something within me is saying that you should, too. Quite complicated, right? But anyway, always take care! Somebody here is loving you from the deepest part of her heart!"
Corny again pero whatever. Nilagay ko ang sulat and candies sa isang paper box.
I'll just give it to Stev and make him give it to his Kuya, kaya ko to!
Hours passed, the program ended. Nakita ko na si Stev, I'm just gonna give this to him and make a little favor!
Pero parang naka-glue ang paa ko sa kinatatayuan ko dahil di magawang gumalaw at lumapit sa kan'ya.
And just like that, I lost my chance.
***End of Flashback***
Napabuntong-hininga nalang ako.
I swear to all stars, kapag nanligaw si Rae ay sasagutin ko siya kaagad!
And I swear to the moon and sun, na si Rae lang ang lalaking papakasalan ko.
"I swear."
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