Her Memoir

Update 14

I am wearing another dress, it was green and it shouts elegance. It was a balloon like dress.

So much for my taste, I paired it with some green heels. It was 3 inches, I guess.

I clapped my hands as the performance ended, well, there's this gathering for teenagers within my parents' organization, sumali na agad ako, hindi ito kasing boring nung actual event with the oldies.

It's a gathering where we have the chance to meet new people within the org, eat and have fun.

Most of them are 15 and above ang age, while me? I'm just 13 years old, pero 'di halata sa height ko. Noong elementary pa ako ay considered ako na isa sa mga pandak sa school pero nung naging highschool ako ay labis ang pagtangkad ko.

Tinawag na ang aming team, mga ka-organization ko sa lugar namin. We role played.

Umuupo lang ako sa gilid. Nakatingin sa mga kapwa ko teenagers habang ngiti-ngiting nakatingin sa stage na kinauupuan ko.

I roamed my eyes again, It stopped nung napantingin ako kay Rae. He's here. Obviously.

We bowed as we end our performance.

3 pang performance ang sumunod, they were singing, dancing, doing a theatre or something.

Then boom, It was time for Rae's organization's. I think, they will sing.

And I was correct, pero medyo may drama rin.

I'm smiling like an idiot as I watch their little play.

Minutes passed and huwala. Tapos na ang performance nila, I clapped my hands to acknowledge their greatness.

Maraming nag-perform after them which I didn't give a dang at all, my whole attention is being poured to a certain person, Rae.

His enjoying this litte event while me? Not really. I took my headphones and phone and listened to a song.

I am just staring at Rae, nung medyo lumingon siya sa direction ko ay agad kong binaling sa iba ang tingin ko, gosh. Ayaw kong mahuli ng paulit-ulit.

Is he aware that I have a crush on him?

Minutes passed again. Lunch.

Syempre, may mga baon kami. Kinuha ko kay Ate Cree ang pink lunch book ko tapos ay kumain na. I prayed before eating, okay?

There was also a huge table on the center of the place, there were a lot of foods on it. Kaso nahihiya akong pumunta doon para kumuha, gosh, the spaghetti is seducing me!

I am a spaghetti addiktus, okay?

Makikisuyo na sana ako kay Ate kaso may kausap siyang ka-age niya.

Gusto kong kumuha ng spaghetti, huhuhu.

Kaso ang daming tao doon. Huhuhu.

Akala ko change for the better na 'ko, hanggang ngayon pala mahiyain parin ako. Langya huhuhu.

I just stayed on my seat like a noob, dang spaghetti, 'pag naka-uwi ako magpapaluto rin ako sa kay Yayi, Yaya YinYin, Yaya namin.

Minutes passed, may palaro. Various questions were asked. Mostly about history. I played well, I guess. Kaso yung 2 rounds nalang para malaman ang winner ay natalo ako. Hays, hahaha.

Tumalikod na ako at hinarap ang daad papunta sa seat ko, nanlaki ang mata ko nang mapansin ko si Rae wearing that red long sleeves. Gosh. Dadaan ba ako sa harap niya?

Walk normal, keso. Lakad lang, nothing's going to change, okay?

After minutes of convincing myself ay dumaan na ako sa harap niya. Gosh.

Napayuko nalang ako nung nakarating na ako sa upuan ko. Minutes passed again, the winner was already announced.

The winner's a she.

"Crush 'yan ni Rae." Napatingin agad ako kay Ate Cree tapos dun sa nanalo, what?! She's not pretty! Malapad ang kan'yang noo for goodness sake! Tapos ang kulot ng hair, She looks like a afro jack with brunette hair! Hmmp!

Judgemental na kung judgemental, wala akong pake.

"Joke~" sinamaan ko lang ng tingin si Ate Cree, hmmp. Naging bad tuloy ako.

"Before leaving, we prepared some snacks for you all to eat, enjoy kids."

Sabi nung host na oldie na din. Yung mga naghanda ay mostly parents ng kung sino-sino dito.

My parents aren't here. Busy I guess.

Nasa malaking mesa na naman sa gitna ang mga pagkain, dahil sa dakila akong mahiyain ay 'di ako kumuha! Hmmp.

Lumapit sa akin si Ate Cree and gave me a cupcake. Kinain ko naman, like seriously, ang hina ko kumain at gumalaw, I act like a little Maria Clara and it's weird kasi sobrang makulit ako sa school.

Oh, I know the reason why, there Rae is. Staying beneath the table, talking to someone, smiling like Mr. Joker and eating like he doesn't care about the people surrounding him.

Pinapanood ko lang siya as I eat too.

"Keso."  Hinanap ko ang tumawag sa akin. "What is it, Tito Jan?"

He's grinning, like seriously. Siya rin siguro ang susundo sa amin.

"Oh, si Rae ba yun?" Tumango nalang ako dahil nakaturo siya kay Rae. "Why don't you take a picture with him?"

Nanlaki agad ang mata ko! Gahd, sure I want to! Pero nakakahiyaaa. Nooooooo.

"H-huwag na po hahaha." sabi ko agad. "No, tatawagin ko siya." Nanlaki ulit ang singkit kong mata. Lalaki na kaya to? Hehehe.

Pero seryoso kinakabahan ako. Ayaw ko. "Ayieh. A picture with him, ey?" Asar pa ni Ate Cree na kasama yung mga tropa niya.

Kasama niya din si Tito Edwin. "Ayan na Keso, wala ka nang kawala. Hahaha."

*dug* *dug* *dug*

Sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko! Waaa! Tapos nakita ko pa si Tito Jan na papalapit habang kasama si Rae! Ayaw ko na!

Bigla akong tumakbo palabas since malapit lang ako sa pintuan.

"Keso!"

Yun ang huli kong narinig bago ako makalayo, dun ako sa sasakyan ni Tito Jan pumunta.

I can still hear my heart beat. Baka marinig niya if ever. Huhuhu. Ayaw ko na.

Sayang, another part of my mind stated. Yeah, sayang pero kinakabahan talaga ako huhuhu.

Sumilip ulit ako sa pintuan. Nanlaki ang mata ko after makita yung lumabas.

"Keso."