Stand by me imagines

Too much to handle: Gordie imagine

A/n: Warning!: This is about suicide! If you do not feeling comfortable reading about it I suggest you do not read this imagine. I do NOT think that suicide is a joke and I take it very seriously so don't take me writing this imagine as me not taking it seriously because I know how serious it is. And if anyone is ever going through a hard time, please know that suicide and hurting yourself is not the answer and know that you are important and loved. If anyone ever needs to talk about anything please please message me and I'll try my best to help! I love you all so much and I hope you enjoy this even though it'll be a bit sad. (Y/n isn't in this one either by the way.)

Gordie had had enough. He couldn't take it anymore. He missed his brother too much and had had enough of his parents ignoring and neglecting him. So, he decided to end it all. He looked up the train times and waited on the train tracks on Back Harlow Road. He thought about the time that him, Chris, Vern and Teddy had come all the way out here to look for the dead body of Ray Brower. He wondered if anyone would find his body as he hadn't said where he was going on the note he left for his parents. He wondered if they would even notice that he was gone. He wondered if they'd even care. He heard the sound of the train coming a closed his eyes.

~the next day~

Chris, Vern and Teddy all walked into school together for the first time in months. All of them speeches. Everyone stared at them sympathetically. Suddenly, Teddy snapped. He begun yelling and screaming at everyone to stop staring. Chris grabbed him and tried to hold him back. Everyone else around quickly left and soon it was just the three boys in the school yard. Teddy struggled for a while, still screaming and crying before he finally stopped and fell to the ground. Chris hugged him and shhhed him while Teddy cried into his chest. "He's in a better place now man." Chris whispered.
After awhile Teddy calmed down and the three boys decided that it was best for them to all just go back to their houses and grieve alone in piece.

As soon as Chris got home he went straight to his room. Chris hadn't actually processed what had happened properly until Teddy's break down. He felt hot tears beginning to stream down his cheeks. "Why did you have to do this Gordie?" He whispered to himself sobbing. "Why did you have to die?". Suddenly a memory came flooding back to Chris.

"Why did you have to die?" "Why did Deny have to die?" Gordie had asked him "I don't know" Chris replied. "It should have been me." Gordie said "don't say that." Chris replied.

As Chris thought back on this moment, he realised the extent of how unhappy Gordie was and how much he thought that he would have been better off dead.

After and hour of crying Chris had finally calmed down. He felt guilty for not doing something but he knew that Gordie was with his brother and hopefully, he was finally happy.

So, this was a really deep one. I hope this didn't offend anyone because it wasn't meant to. If anyone ever needs to talk feel free to message me at anytime. To everyone that's going through a tough time right now, please know that you are not alone and that there are heaps of people who care about you. I'm going to write and short but light hearted imagine next so you having something to make you feel a bit better. I hope that this don't upset anybody and if too many people have a problem with it I will take it down. I hope you all have a wonderful day/ night and that something amazing happens to you today. -Georgia ❤