gemini || baekhyun × taeyeon

chapter one

fine
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"Do you want to go to han river to get some fresh air?"

Byun Baekhyun turned to his bandmate, Suho, with a questioning gaze. He started realising that he has been sighing ever since they arrived at their dorm. It's been 4 years he has been suffering. He tried to act silly infront of fans, but deeply, he's hurt. He has never loved someone this much. He wonder why it's so hard to forget about her, Kim Taeyeon.

"Baek?"

He was thinking too much until he forget to answer suho.

"Sure, let's go"

Suho knew Baekhyun was still hurting. Afterall, the other 7 members also knew Baekhyun was still upset. They understood him fully and sometimes, they even tried to cheer him up but other times, they leave him alone because that's what he wanted. Suho and Baekhyun walked to han river as they both wear cap and mask to make sure that no one will recognise them. It was a peaceful night and not alot of people was there. Only the sounds of wind, trees, cars and water could be heard by the both of them.

"Hyung knows that you haven't move on yet"

The orange-red haired guy slowly face brown haired guy. Suho saw those painful teary eyes that he tried to hold back as suho asked him that.

"It's okay, hyung is not forcing you to answer"

Suho smiled, reassuring baekhyun that its not important to answer his questions.

"I'm still hurting. I still care. I still do love her alot. At first, I thought i would at least get over this after months of hurting. But actually I'm happy seeing her being happy. I'm glad she wasn't the one suffering. I'm glad--"

"Baek.. Why would you even thought that she isn't suffering the same way as you? Didn't i told you before that noona loves you the same way as you love her?

Suho actually still close to Taeyeon. Since they both has big reponsibility to carry out as a leader, they shared most tough moments and they also do share about their personal problems. And suho also knows that taeyeon still have feelings for him.

"But hyung, she might have found someone better than me. Well, more mature and better, much older too i guess"

Baekhyun smiled painfully with his teary eyes.

"Stop acting like you are fine baek.. everyone knows you ain't fine. Well, not exactly everyone but at least your members knows. We care for you. We really do. No matter how annoying and noisy you are at times until we would want to smack you, we still love you. Exo.. we are one. Remember?"

Suho smiled with his teary eyes, reminiscing about their ex-members.

Both of them kept quiet as they listened to the waves and the wind. They totally understand one another even without saying anything. The older guy stoods up and flash a smile to the orange-red haired guy. Suho ruffled Baekhyun's head before walking away, leaving the broken guy.

21:06

"Taeyeon"

The short black haired girl turned towards the long brown haired girl, Tiffany. She then realised she was playing with her food using the chopsticks, instead of eating it.

"Is there something disturbing you right now?"

Her other bandmate, Hyoyeon, asked. Well, they know what's going on in her mind even before Taeyeon could open her mouth. They just wanted her to share it out, not keeping it all to herself.

"I promise to share after we eat alright?"

Taeyeon smiled slightly, making her members sigh. They are obviously worried about their leader. It's not the first time she's like this. Not twice. Not thrice either. 4 years had passed by and it's still the same. She's been suffering by saying her white lies that would just hurt her even more. She didn't want to be a burden to anyone so she would just cry inside her room alone. And sometimes cry herself out to force herself to sleep. She was already sick and tired of acting as if she didn't care anymore but deep inside, she still does. She still love that guy, who always makes her heart flutter even without doing anything cute or whatever. Byun Baekhyun.

"So unnie, are you willing to share with us your problems right now and stop crying everyday making your eyes more swollen every morning?"

Sooyoung, who's eating her snacks together with Yoona and Yuri, asked.

"Ac-actually, I still loves him"

Taeyeon flash a painful smile with a teary eyes.

The members didn't know what to say because obviously they knew she still love him. They knew she still care. They knew she's still hurting. They knew she haven't moved on.

"I regretted leaving him with white lies when i was still loving him like a crazy woman. I lied and lied and lied and i hope he does hate me right now. But you all know what? I'm really happy that he's happy right now. It hurts me that he didn't care neither love anymore but im glad he has moved on"

The short black haired said. Yes, Taeyeon lied. She lied about hating him. She lied about not loving him. She lied about wanting to end their relationship when she dosen't want to. She lied, with white lies, that still makes both of them hurt. She is still into him. So into him. Even after 4 years, nothing has changed her feelings for him.

"Taeyeon ah, you do know that we are always here for you right? I mean like who knows, he still care and love you like you do? Well, we can't understand guys neither they can understand us too"

Her best friend, Tiffany, said. Truthfully, Tiffany are still close with Baekhyun. And as a noona, she also cared about him alot since they're really close like real siblings already. Tiffany knows Baekhyun still loves her and Taeyeon already admitted that she still loves him too. But now, would they still lie infront each other saying that they have already move on and have a new life? Tiffany dosen't want her bestfriend or either her close junior to be hurt about those lies they're telling to one another.

"Taeyeon ah, just take a rest first"
"Yes, that's right yul"

Yuri said as Sunny agreed. Other members left the room first except for the two maknae. It was unexpected but still cute. The maknaes hugged Taeyeon tightly as if taeyeon would leave them. The older chuckled because of her cute sisters. It made her cheer up though. Her members. They has never once failed making her smile and make her feel better with their silly yet cute behaviour. Taeyeon is always thankful towarda them, but dosen't know how to thank them. They has done too many things for her just to make her happy. She feels guilty for troubling them yet glad to have them by her side.

"It would be great if Jessica is here"

Taeyeon smile painfully and sighed. She keep losing humans she loves but she really hope, she wouldn't lost any humans who's still by her side right now.

"It’s not fine between the meaningless jokes, back-and-forth conversations"