"I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love calum."
-Luke Hemmings
"I will always had a thing for luke, I don't know what its called."
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I decide to clean calum's bedroom to forget about everything he said to me. If I could sleep I would, but I know my mind won't stop thinking about this whole thing, about him shouting at me this morning. I make the bed, fold up the blanket and sit at the edge of his bed, smelling his scent that I love so much. I remember the medicine, I mean calum's medicine. I should go find it. I open the drawer beneath his bedside table.
Yep I get it, the blue bottle, full of pills. But something caught my eyes, there's a photograph laying under the bottle of his medicine. It's not my right to look at it, but I have to, I need to. My hearts clenching like a thousand times when my hand touched this thing. It feels like so many secrets untold behind this photo.
I pull out the photo, and if my heart doesn't hurt when it's pounding so fast, it does now. Not because it's pounding but because.... What the hell?! Why is everyone never told me about this? oh my god. I'm on my knees right now, and I want to kill myself, knowing calum ever had a relationship with my twin, yeah lexy.
I get out of his bedroom and reach my wallet in my room, I get the door and leave the house. I don't need to tell calum where I'm heading to, he won't care if I'm home or not anyway. I take the bus to go to my old house with my family back then. I need to find my mom. I need to find her right away and question about calum and lexy.
It's literally unfair for me. I can see that my twin hurted him by looking at this photo because they were happy. He still kept this photo of her, it seems like he hasn't moved on, but he had a boyfriend though. I'm such a mess right now, reaching the knob of the door of my house.
"Luke!" My mom greeted me with that happy smile of hers. I passed her and didn't say anything. I just wanna go somewhere only I knew, then screaming as loud as I can. I can hear my mom question my brother like 'what's wrong with him?' and then my brother replied 'maybe he had a fight with his husband, marriage problem's. It's not a big deal mom, calm yourself.
I pull out the photo from my pocket and start staring at it. Calum must be loved her so much. Of course my twin is really beautiful. I grab all the things in my bedroom and start throwing it to the wall, I'm punching my fist through the wall also.
"Luke, whats wrong? please open the door!" she begged, banging on the door
"AHHHHH!!!" I shout and cry out, rubbing my face untill I feel calm. I should really talk to my mom about this, if I don't it'll kill me slowly.
"Luke come here. tell me whats wrong." she said, while I'm taking a seat beside her. I take out the photo and give that to her.
"Calum with lexy?" She confused, frowning her eyebrows.
"Why are you suprised mom? it's not like you don't know about this. Why you never told me about this?" the tears started rolling down on my face.
"Luke I didn't know about this, I've never known. Lexy never told me this since she left out and never came back." I turn away, not believing what I've just heard.
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