Make You Feel my Love // cake

nineteen

Calum's pov

"Loser!" Alex said, feeding himself a popcorn  into his mouth. We're not hanging out, we just decide to play an x-box because I'm lonely, I don't even know where luke is. I kinda miss his existance in this phone or should I say I miss him alot because he's gone for like two days and I wasn't trying to find where he is.

If you think that I'm a cruel person then yeah you could say that. It's not like I hate him, god no. It's just I don't know I always saw her face everytime I look at luke, and thats the reason why I'm being like this.

I really want to hold him the other day when he cried out because I shout him out but the thought about his twin hurting me a few years ago, makes me can't even move my body. I feel guilty because luke is luke but I really can't describe my feelings for luke. I will always had a thing for luke I don't know what is called.

"It's called love." I turn to alex, covering my mouth.

"Am I that too loud?" I ask, fearing myself out.

"Nah, but I still can hear it." He winked, looking at the tv right after.

"I don't want to hurt luke." I say with all honesty.

"You did, mentally." Oh god yes, I hurted him so badly, just because I hate his twin. I can't believe I did that to luke, over and over again breaking his heart yet I feel I'm okay while maybe he's struggling, trying to fix the pieces of his heart.

"Don't play with his feelings just because you're not sure about yours cal." I look at alex, I feel really stupid now.

"You want him with somebody else?" I stare at him, gasping for air. I can't imagine luke with somebody else and suddenly the memories comes back about him laughing with the other guy. The thought of it makes me want to throw up.

"No!" I say and still questioning myself why I did those things to luke? why was I hurting him so badly?

Is it because  I want his twin to get a revenge for leaving me, but it's not her. It.is.luke.

"Of course you don't want to, the jealousy will kill your soul slowly cal." I know that, I'd die as soon as luke said he loves the other guy one day.

"Don't think over it too much, now you should get your man back dude, If not you'll regret in the end and the sight of him will haunt you for the rest of your life." I stand up, trying to find my phone right after alex said the convincing words for me, as always.

I send a text to him, hoping that he would reply right away.

       Luke where are you?

I can hear the phone buzzed and I realize that it's his phone. Damn, he really didn't want me to know where he is? He didn't even bring his phone with him. The next name that popped into my head is liz. Maybe luke is in his home, that isn't really far from here, need 30 mins to get there.

"Hallo?" It sounds more like a question.

"Uh mom, is luke home?" I can feel the smile on her face, knowing that I'm calling her and asking about luke maybe.

Calum didn't want to hurt luke, yet he did.