i was Abused and rejected but now i'm wanted

Forgivness comes with a price........and chocolate

Caterina

I kissed him.

I kissed him.

Then i kissed him....again.

Wow this trip has had some unexpected turns already and we haven't even been here for a full day its only 5pm.

We have had arguments, heartfelt stares, almost killings, and magical kisses.

Have you ever had that feeling when you are sitting with someone you have not seen in forever then you guys do something and everything gets awkward, but then at the same time you are enjoying each others presence.

That is the exact situation i am in.

I don't know weather i should say something or just sit here with him in the silence.

We had just finished a very intense make-out session, and i dont know what to do.

"Look cat i know i was an asshole to you, a complete asshole, but i want to try and fix that if you give me the chance. I am so sorry for what i did to you and i want to make it up to you please let me."

I honestly dont know what to do anymore i mean yea he was an asshole to me but him apologizing for it does not answer the question of why he did it.

Sorrow, sadness, and anger, is all i feel at this very moment.

Sorrow because i do still love him but i dont want to, sadness because what they did to me ensured the nightmares i have almost every night, and anger because i let myself get this low that im actually considering forgiving him.

"I will forgive you if you and my brother come to me and tell me why you did the things you guys did to me, and you cant use your alpha tone on him he has to agree on his own accord."

That was fair enough right i get an explanation then they get their forgiveness.

Win, win right, i mine as well get something out of this.

"Ok, is that all i have to do, is there anything else."

Wow he must really want me never in my life did i thing Ryder would ever ask me if he could get me anything.

Wow

Just.....wow

"Yes actually, cam you get me some chocolate."

What? I most definitely was not about to give up the chance for free chocolate. Nope, no way would i give that up.

"Yea, sure anything you want."

Wow, i might actually have fun on this trip.

With that he leaves the room. I feel all giddy inside, like i want to go do a super stupid looking dance, but im not gonna do that.

I got a rep to hold up here so yea. With all this giddy feeling i still cant shake the thought that something bad is going to happen something is going to happen.

I shake my head to try and clear my thoughts, i walk to my closet and take out some pjs but its not the same now.

So i sneak off to Ryder's room and take one of his favorite shirts.