My book of randomness

Crossing borders- Diary #3

Today was my "last day of school". That's what they call it at least. It basically means "a day of having fun before the final exams start in 2,5 weeks". However, after today I'll only see my friends during the exams, so it was a sort of farewell. This made me decide something, but I'll come back to that later.

The day started with everyone going dressed up to school (I was an orange bunny-wuppy (blame my sister)) where we all had breakfast. With we, I mean all the teachers and the students from exam class 2017. It was actually quite boring compared to the rest of the day. After that we went with the bus to Moviepark Germany. I live in the Netherlands, so it was a nice trip abroad. I went into the park with my friends F, C, M, J and E. I decided, since it was the last day of school, to challenge myself and join my friends with everything they proposed. This evolved in me going into rollercoasters, although I HATE them and I'll have a headache for the next week (some weird results of a shitty operation). It was lots of fun though, just walking around in an attraction park with friends. Also most the attractions were fun, just not those two rollercoasters.

After having spent the whole day there, we went back home, where it was time to say farewell to eachother, and having our last official cycle back home with my friends F and C. And now I'm tired and tomorrow will be early again so I don't know why I'm still writing.

Oh, and about that decision I mentioned in the beginning, it needs some explaining. Confession time. The thing is, I have this crush on my friend F (he's male, I'm straight) for almost a year. The whole year I didn't take any action, not wanting to risk our friendship. Only today I realized it was the last proper time I would see him. I decided I would take a little bit of action. Not too obvious, that totally isn't me, and not telling me about my feelings either, just a bit profiting of the situation. A few examples: in the bus I was sat next to him. He fell asleep, his head on my shoulder (since I was sitting next to the window and he didn't have anything to lean on) Normally I would have pulled him away, awkwardly, but now I just thought: "oh, why not?" During some water rollercoaster (which was great however) I sat in a boat with him and C. I sat in the front, and F middle. Only the problem was, the boat was a bit too small, so I had to sit on his lap (I didn't mind, no problem I had to🌚). On the way back home in the bus, he didn't fall asleep. Although that, I still managed to have accidentally my leg touching his the whole way back (3 hours). Cycling home, it was time for farewell. C. Hugged me (she's a girl, we're really just friends), but F just shook my hand. Then me and C (she honestly doesn't know; she ships F with M) started a discussion on how men are so not emancipated that they don't dare to hug a girl farewell. This resulted in an extra long hug, as evidence from him that he really can do it. I didn't have a problem with that as well.

Anyway, that was my day. Quite private this time, and I hope no one I know will ever find this because the abbreviations are real and when they see I have a crush on F there's no doubt who I mean.