Sanyu's POV
I woke up , i felt dizzy , i mean it , hell dizzy , the environment around me was dark , yesterday i had ignored him or basically fate made me ignore him the whole day , i took my phone and grabbed the water bottle on my side table and checked the inbox , it had many messages from Randhir , thank god i had read receipts off, so basically i could read the messages without him knowing that i read it ,
"Hey Sanyu , good night and have sweet dreams , plus let's meet tomorrow " it said i sighed and kept my phone back , i kept wondering what i should do , and what I should be doing to make this plan of mine successful , i had decided to leave this country after 24.8.17 , i went up to my desk and saw a message on my lappy saying that my resignation is approved , i was happy , now i could focus on this mission #betray , well i did not intend to do this for hurting him , but i wanted him to leave me , Mr. Homo sapien has to leave me , now i would be alone , all alone , heck yes all alone , again, i hope i die soon after i commit this unforgivable sin ....
Randhir's POV
I went to the office and saw that Sanyukta hadn't come today too , now that did worry me a lot but not that much as my kitty will be taking rest today too , i hope she is fine , but i didn't receive any message from her at all that's what is annoying me alot 😶😶😶😶
Sanyu's POV
Randhir i hope you'll regret loving me and completely forget me after what ever will happen in the future , i don't know what I'll do , or what i will be doing after that , i am already guilty for it , maybe i should go and let my cutter kiss my skin , i thought and dashed to the washroom to make one more cut , i always felt relieved doing this , and then i suddenly remembered i had to visit Mrs.Silva , i quickly dressed all the wounds and wore a full sleeve tunic typa top and ripped jeans that did not reveal my cuts and dashed out of my house towards the clinic with my vespa ...
"Sanyukta so how are you now ? " Dr.Silva asked me with a smile which is obviously fake , i guess ?? " I am totally fine doctor " i said returning a forced smile , " so are you keeping up with the medicines ?? " She asked " yes doctor all well with it , but when will i stop taking them ? " I asked " well until and unless you stop fearing about the past and live the present and future " she smiled sadly while saying so , i cursed myself to call it fake , indeed she cared for me genuinely ,but i always thought of her to show sympathy , " yes i will doc " i smiled , a small one , but a real one , " so how are you feeling now a days ? " She asked me , " well pretty good and happy " i said with a typical lying patient face i guess as whatever i said was the opposite , she wasn't convinced with my answer hell yes she was a psychologist , how could you expect her to not to spot someone lying , " okay so let me examine your body " she said eyeing my clothes , i knew it darn !!! , She came to me and guided me to lay on the bed by the side of the table , i looked intently at the ceiling thinking about her reaction , she gently caressed my cheeks which made me smile , i had missed this since childhood , she smiled back at me and lifted my shirt ......I heard a sigh , a huge sigh , and saw a pained , hell pained expression on her face , " wha...Wha... Happened doctor , don't be worried , everything is fine doctor i swear by myself i am really happy " i said nervously as i was out of words of what to say , " well i know you want to end it all , right sweetheart ? " She said , i looked down , " Sanyu you have to get out of depression , please cooperate with me , stop thinking about your past and punishing yourself unnecessarily ,please i beg you , please for me at least don't this to yourself , whatever happened in the past was not your fault !! " She said with tears , i hope she knows that she is my doctor , she should not feel me as if i am her daughter , urrghhhhh , " you know Sanyukta , self harming , punishing yourself etc are signs of severe depression ,and now by your side i am the one there for you , there's none from your family who know about it , please at least care for me !!!!” she said in a pleading tone , well that's true i have none to care about me except this lady and Randhir , and after that day , there will be no one to care about me , i smiled inwardly thinking about it , why should someone care for a piece of trash huh ! , " Okay I'll try bye doc " i said leaving out the clinic , i didn't want to visit her but this was my last visit to her , i hope she will be happy after i leave :) ....
I went home straight after this thing , i didn't know what to do , i had to just kill time , meanwhile also ignore Randhir as much as possible , i decided to leave him a message to be honest i wanted to be rude , just before i could start texting , i got a call from Dr.Silva , i cut it , as i didn't want any mess or drama , she called me 4 whole times like this continuously that annoyed me so much , i lastly picked it up " hello " i chipped rude af , " miss Sanyukta your medicines have been changed , go get ""xx yy "" medicines , they have heavy dosage , i hope that you'll be fine and thank you for visiting my clinic " she chipped rudely just as the way i did and cut the call , hell yes , i succeeded in making her annoyed , now she was tired , tired of showing sympathy , this is what i want , i have to break all the bonds with the people so as to avoid the mess that will be created after that day ......
Then i just texted Ron " let's not meet today i don't want to meet anyone " and sent it and dosed off looking at the clock which showed 4pm not to forget to message Randhir " hey bro , let's not meet today , i can't come " i texted and slept
1026 words !!!!!! Excluding the note , Okay so now you can conclude that she is suffering from clinical depression , and is in a severe stage , symptoms of depression are
Self harming
Suicidal thoughts
Hopelessness
Feeling worthless
Always having that i-am-useless attitude and many more symptoms like unhealthy loss or gain of weight , loss of appetite , followed by feeling fatigue and mentally drained
This is what Sanyu was going through , please don't show hatred to her , you'll get to know her past soon enough , she is innocent and has suffered through a pretty rough and horrible childhood , and children mostly get influenced in their adulthood when they have a tough childhood , it is not love failure always , it is not always due to friends , it can be anything , if someone is depressed try to help them , don't think they are over re-acting , and those who are acting just ignore those idiots , but on a serious note please help the people with metal illness , maybe you would also be the victim , if you are don't hide tell it to trust worthy person , i know you dont want to , but i am telling you there is always hope for you in the future :)
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lets forget the past
FanfictionA story about a girl who is trapped in her own mind ?? Can that happen well it happens all over the world when you can't get over some past happenings the mind starts controlling you , here Sanyukta agarwal has had a bitter past ( based on a inciden...
