lets forget the past

you want to die ?

"so what do you think Randhir ? , I know i am stupid but what do you feel about this theory that i made ?" She asked , i didn't know what to say , i was confused , was she telling to live or die , " Sanyu i am confused , are you telling me to live or die ?" , I asked she frowned " i am not telling "you" to die !" She said emphasising on ' you ' , " i mean if you want to live na toh help the society , and i am not telling to die i am just saying that one should not be scared of death unnecessarily " she said , i was still floating in the air as i was still hell confused , " let's finish the soup " she said to divert the topic , and started sipping the soup , " Sanyu ?" I called her out " hmmm" she hummed in response , " you should think in a different way " i suggested her hoping that she will change her perspective , " aree ab chodo naa yar let it be , i just wanna to blurt it out " she said nonchalantly , she cocked her left eyebrow up asking me what , " nothing Sanyu i am worried " i said in response and started drinking the soup , i looked at her , she had finished the soup by now , the last drop was left which she drank directly form the bowl which inturn made a red mustache above her lips , i chuckled looking at her , she frowned and licked it , god she is so cute , i pulled her cheeks , " ouch stop na " she said getting annoyed , she is so damn cute ! , I then resumed drinking my soup  i wanted to ask her as to why her kitchen was so empty but that would sound rude so I chucked it off , i took her bowl and mine and went down to keep it in the kitchen , the down stair's area felt normal but going into Sanyu 's room it had a really weird vibe , her colour selection was surprising looking at her whole house , overall it was good but her room , i went in again and saw her fiddling with her phone , " why is your room different from others Sanyu ? " I asked , " i like these colours Randhir , why don't you like it ?" She asked excited , " uh actually no , i mean it's way too dark " i said feeling weird about why would someone like these colours , they are good but the whole vibe , the environment makes it creepy " ya i like dark colours you know , i mean like they are cool and soothing " she said devoid any emotions. , I came to know the following stuffs
1.she has gone through a horrible past
2.she is in a deep state of depression maybe ? , I am not sure
It's not that people who like dark colours are sad or something , i personally love black but i am not taking it to such an extent that it makes my whole room dark and weird right ,?
" Are you feeling better now ? " I asked her , she nodded in response , " you don't have to care about me so much Randhir " she said with tears in her eyes , oh shit why is this girl crying abhi , ek toh already she is in pain , i hugged her " Sanyu because you are my best friend na and i love you a lot , toh how do you expect me to leave you , bata na mujhe " i said rubbing her back , she hugged me tight , *awwww* my baby is sho cute , " Randhir i don't want you to leave your priorities for me " she said slowly , okay this really angered me " Sanyu listen to me carefully , you are my first priority along with my parents , i love my mom , my dad , and you the most so stop thinking that you don't have any value in my life , you are seriously making me angry by showing me as if i don't care about you and i am doing this all forcefully " i said in a little high tone , " okay Randhir i am sorry , but can you excuse me i want to go to the washroom " she said huffing , wait why was she huffing plus all of a sudden she wants to go to the washroom , i left her , she immediately went into her washroom , i didn't hear anything from inside is she crying there ? , Oh no wait , but i should not barge in , if she won't come out in 10mins , I'll not care what she was doing and I'll break open the door ...

Sanyu's POV
I was searching for my pill , i was breathing really hard , before i passed out , i had to make sure that i took that pill as soon as possible , i was feeling giddy , and my vision was slowly blurring , i searched , yasss i got the pill and gulped it  in fast , okay i became normal , the mere thought of mom and dad , made me wanna cry hugging my knees or got to hell and get tortured in the most ugliest way like me burning and they adding salt on my burns that's such a horrible torture , i was horrified by my expressions *chuckles* , i don't even deserve anyone's care , my mom or my dad or even be it Randhir , why is Randhir being so good to me , okay wait i should tell him the truth as  soon as possible though or else something that i want but is not good will happen

Randhir's POV
The door clicked , indicating she came out , she almost took like 5 mins  , so that's okay , she looked a little pale , all of a sudden , out of the blue , it seems weird , when she had gone , i was thinking about her theory , now that she explained it i wanna to ask " Sanyu do you want to die ? " I asked calmly , she looked amused at my question most probably because might have expected me to ask , what she was doing in the bathroom i guess or why did she go all of a sudden , she came to her bed , holding her waist , she was being really stupid , i made her sit or basically lay down , and caressed her waist by asking her permission, she nodded , i placed my hand above it and caressed it slowly thinking that this will decrease her pain at least a bit , i asked her again " do you wanna die Sanyu ?" This was an important question which could answer most of the questions i have in my mind , she began " I...

Hello people ,
Now don't hit me cause i left it all at the end , hahaha *that's so evil* okay so i wanted to say this thing , actually i feel that this ff is taking a little weird i guess or a totally different plot , no no , i am talking about the quality of the updates , i think it's becoming not so interesting , is it so ? , I strongly feel it , because my updates i feel are like shit 😕😕😕 but I'll try my best to write acche se