lets forget the past

23.8.17

Sanyu's POV

I woke up and tried to get up but I couldn't , I looked down on my stomach , a huge white blood stained plaster right there , I sighed , looked around my room it was a mess blood stains everywhere

I had many scratches on my body , I was feeling so helpless then that I ended up doing this , I looked into my phone and saw nothing except for one notification i.e. a message from sanaya , I didn't want to read but I read it

"Bi*ch if you love him so much then why are you doing this ?" Said her message

" Well I already have told you not to use such words be polite " I replied she took advantage of him how can I forget !

"Ya fine meet me soon @ xyzpark okay today we have to do arrangements tomorrow you are going to do it !" Came her text

A tear rolled down my cheek bone down to my jawline and fell in the screen

" Yes sure when should we meet ?” I asked her

" Well maybe at 10?" Came her text

I went and dragged myself to the shower I could smell an iron type of a smell obviously ( blood smells like iron she is referring to the smell of blood ) *sigh* my body was aching a lot

I went in and took a glance of my naked body , there was no skin patch left which had no scars , it was all covered with scratches , scars , dried torn skin and what not

But I smiled , looking at the freshly cut skin on my abdomen , it was way too deep , I had put in some more spices into it and made it burn yesterday which reminded me of my past, my eyes were glossy

Maybe I deserved this....

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Randhir's POV

I woke up i had no idea what was going on my mind , neither did sanaya contact me at all , I looked around for my phone , I took it immediately and checked for notifications that I might have got , there was nothing in it

I went to office half heartedly , first of all I don't know whereabouts of Sanyu plus I went to her house but she was not there , plus i don't receive a single message from her , well maybe she wants to be alone for sometime ? , Well Hella lot of time ! , I pulled my hair in frustration.

First of all my body has weird and disgusting nail marks , second of all Sanyu is ignoring me , third of all sanaya is suddenly being so quite urrghhhhh god do something

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Sanyu's POV

I came out and wore a full length hoodie and paired it up with skinny jeans which were hell loose and was enough to hide the most unhygienic cuts of my body  , I looked at my face it was ugly urgh I disgusted looking at myself so I quickly took my phone and ran out of the house

@ 10 xyz park

I saw her but this time she was in decent clothes , a yellow top paired with a loose track pant

"Hey" I said trying to control my anger

"Hi , well I really wanted to ask you this question " she said in a serious tone

" Yes sure go ahead " I replied back

" Let's first have a seat " she told me

" See Sanyukta if you love him so much then why aren't you being with him you know he loves you too that too a lot that day when I went with him to the bar , he was drunk and kept on saying your name , he was saying that you ignored him , but he is giving you time and all stuff , why are you doing this to him Sanyukta ? " She said with a lot of seriousness ,

" I..*takes a deep breath* well I just don't want to be in a relation I am not ready for it " I lied , I would not want to create an issue right

She maintained a poker face , " see Sanyukta I don't know what to say but because you want to keep it to yourself I am not going to budge you but just telling you one thing true love is hard to find and letting it go is easy so be careful well now that it's not late yet you might want to change your decision cause later on I'll make Randhir mine" she said with a straight face

" Do you love him?" I blurted it out somehow

"Well yes and maybe no but just that I don't want this to happen , let's chuck it off and discuss about the plan " she said and diverted the topic well I wanted to divert it as well

" Okay so you bring him to the mall alright , and show him around okay ?" I told her , while she nodded in response

" Then take him towards the store room where the extra goods are kept which is near the washroom" I told her

" But how am I suppose to convince him to come with me tomorrow ?" She asked me

" Well just try to butter him up alright , or just say that you have to meet your old friends and he might also want to join in urrghhhhh​ make up some random reason" I said thinking about it

" Okay the plan is easy now I have to pack my bag with tissue boxes to manage him" she said and left

Yes he will cry , a lot for sure , and he'll hate me forever and ever

I looked at the date on my phone's calendar , yes tomorrow is the most disgusted day of my entire life ...

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Sorry for this boring update well I am now bored of writing this ff now that I think this ff is actually boring , maybe I will stop writing it soon and delete it , not trying to get votes by writing this note but I mean it seriously , I don't know what I'll write after the next part because I am not getting any urge to write it more .