Whats A Soulmate? (Camren)

"You Mean Too Much To Me"

"Did you want to?"

I shouldn't have asked.

[Lucy]

I'm not sure what's worse; having your heart ripped out of your chest? Or having the person you love rip your heart out your chest? The latter of the two I think. No, I don't think. I know.
"You are my best friend." She says
"You were there for me when no one else was." She says
"I care so much about you Lucy." She says
I hear her but I don't believe her. Sure she didn't cheat on me but that doesn't make her confession hurt any less. She didn't sleep with her, she didn't kiss her, but she emotionally did. She held her hand, she leaned in close, she held on tighter.
I can't hide my sadness, usually I'm pretty good about hiding my emotions all together because I could care less what other people think.....except when it comes to Lauren. Everything involving Lauren is different, and I hate it. She was the first to make me feel like I mattered, like I belonged.

"Luc, c'mon up here the view is amazing!" She says as she helps me up onto the rock we found on one of our road trips. We always go on these little day trips and after finally coming back from her tour with Fifth Harmony we finally had time to get together and take one.

Once up there I can't help but just cuddle up next to her "It's been awhile huh?" I say
"It has been. I missed you nugget." She says nudging me playfully and then wrapping her arm around me bringing me in closer.
"I missed you too Flor."

She's finally mine, after the release of their second album Lauren invited me to join her in London so we could spend time together. We've been hooking up whenever she would come home or I would fly out and visit her, I just figured this was one of those times again but boy was I wrong. She asked me to fly out to London and visit her to celebrate the release of their second album, of course my immediate answer was yes! I've honestly been so proud of Lauren and the girls for everything they've accomplished so far. Even though things with Camila are up and down for Lauren right now I wasn't going to let that spoil our time together. Little to my surprise Lauren had the same idea in mind and then some. She had sent for a car to pick me up from the airport, once I got inside I was surprised with flowers, a soft cuddly teddy bear, and a small jewelry box. I couldn't contain the stupid smile I had permanently etched on my face and it was all thanks to Lauren Jauregui.
I finally got to the hotel we were staying at and the same first class treatment continued with small little notes being given to me at every little stop. Lastly, inside the elevator taking me up to our suite I was given one last note attached to the keycard reading "You belong here, you belong with me."
God, Jauregui. You're literally killing me! To say I've been in love with this girl since day one is an understatement. Even before I met her I just knew something was different about her. She carried herself with such grace that it almost intimidated me into not even approaching her at all. Thank god I did though, it was the best decision I've ever made.
I get to the door of our suite and wave the keycard over the lock. Once I hear the lock click I turn the fancy doorknob making my way inside the suite and I instantly find Lauren at the center of the room waiting for me.
I'm a little too shocked to even say anything...she looks stunning. She pulls me from my intense stare "Did you have a good flight?" She asks.
I grab her and bring her into a bone crushing hug completely ignoring her question. I missed her so much.
"I'm glad it went well. I'm good thanks for asking." She giggles into my neck after reciprocating the hug. I can't help but just giggle along with her, it's been so long since we've been together that having her in my arms is so surreal right now and my emotions take over.

"Hey, babe what's wrong? Are you ok?" She asks worried pulling away to look at me. I chuckle at myself a little embarrassed. "I'm sorry...I'm just-" I begin but she cuts me off "Don't." I look at her "What?" I say a little confused. "Don't ever apologize for being you."

I'm taken back a little, this is exactly what I've missed about Lauren. Everything about her makes you feel wanted. I'm about to speak up again but she beats me to it. "I meant what I wrote" she gestures towards the note that was given to me with the keycard. "I was so scared to face my fears....until you came along. You've helped me in ways you can't imagine Lucy, you belong here with me." She gently wipes the tears from my red eyes. "Will you be my girlfriend?"

"Lucy, I need you to believe me please. Yes ok, yes I screwed up and I'm sorry but-"

"You can't do that. You can't just say 'Sorry' and expect everything will just be ok."

"I'm not, that's not what I'm trying to do-"

"Then what are you trying to do? You can't have us both Lauren not again. We aren't kids anymore, shit you have a pair of your own now. So it's time to grow the fuck up, I'm tired of being second choice and I refuse to continue being used like one. Choose. Her or me?"

I've never done this before, I've never given her an ultimatum. I've always been known as the 'best friend who she sometimes hooks up with' and I was ok with that....until...until I figured out that I fell in love with her. I fell in love with her, who the fuck falls in love with their fuck buddy/best friend? I do. I did.

"Lucy" she sighs "You mean too much to me-" she sniffles wiping her tears away "-to just throw everything we've been through away. You mean so much to me Lucy." 

I almost breath out a sigh of relief ....until she continues.

"But so does she."