Whats A Soulmate? (Camren)

"I Wasn't There"

[Lauren]

Seeing Lucy after our break up was hard, though I knew this; I in no way thought it would be a walk in the park. Can you really blame me though? We have history; history that goes back to a time when I didn't even know Camila existed. I could tell that Camila was upset, I'm not sure what it was that they were talking about I can only assume me but I have no idea and I'm sure I won't find out from Camila today or ever. When she's upset she bottles things up, she tries to hide away and figure things out on her own. The problem is that sometimes you can't, sometimes you need to open up and talk about the things you're feeling to be able to come up with a solution. I want to help...I just don't know how.

We didn't speak....Lucy and I. We just saw each other and then she went off further into the tent. I then hesitantly walked over to Camila, I send a smile her way and she smiles back. "Everything alright?" I ask, she looks at me and I see her eyes begin to get a bit glossy "oh babe, please don't get upset" I say as I wrap her in a hug and kiss the side of her head. "I just feel like I've missed so much of Emma's life and it's all my fault-" she begins but I stop her "No Camila, we did what we had to do...but look at them" I turn her to face our girls who are both taking turns with the camera taking selfies and silly pictures together. "Those two are the most amazing, honest, caring kids in the world and that's because they have an amazing mother to thank for that" she smiles while leaning in before I say "and they have you too so-" Camila playfully punches my arm while giggling. "Thank you."

We end up leaving the park shortly after and are now back at the house. We had a quick dinner and a small snack before we helped the girls up to bed and tucked them both in. Camila and I haven't said anything to the girls in terms of where we stand as a couple, hell Camila and I haven't even talked about what we are yet. So after closing Amelia's bedroom door I see Camila at Emma's door leaning against it waiting for me. I stand there smiling towards her, she stretches her hand out to me signaling for me to take it and follow her. She leads us to her bedroom "Camz...are you sure? I mean I know last night we did but...I don't want to just assume-" she places her finger on my lips instantly shutting me up. "Relax Laur, I just want to talk...and cuddle." She grins, I chuckle.

Once inside her bedroom I close the door behind us and I turn around to see Camila bending over taking off her shorts and making her way to the ensuite of her room to begin her nightly routine. I'm left with my mouth slightly open, I had forgotten for a second what it was like to be in 'our' bedroom getting ready for bed. Before tonight we'd been a bit rushed in terms of clothing. Now I'm only left to admire, she starts talking through the open door with her toothbrush in her mouth and a bit of toothpaste in the corners of her mouth, god she's so freaking adorable. "My mom invited us over for dinner this weekend"..."Laur?...Lauren?" She says waving her hand grabbing my attention "Huh?" I say closing my mouth quickly and looking any place other than in her direction. She looks down at herself suddenly feeling a bit embarrassed "Oh crap! I'm sorry Lauren, here let me just-" she begins heading for the closet...."No Camz you're fine..seriously I just-....I just missed this. I missed us." I say as I approach her, Camila's cheeks turn into a light pink I place my hands delicately upon her face and rub my thumbs against them whispering "You're adorable." Smiling I steal a quick kiss.

That night we didn't do anything but cuddle and sleep. It was nice just to be in each other's arms. I woke up the next morning and admired the beauty in my arms quickly before getting up without her noticing. I head to the kitchen to start breakfast, I turn the corner and see Emma at the counter with her bowl of cereal while watching tv. "Morning amor." I say kissing the top of her head before moving to the coffee pot to start up a fresh brew. "Hola Mama" she smiles with a mouth full of Captain Crunch. "You're up early, what's up?" I ask "I actually wanted to ask you if I could go to the museum today" "Museum? Great idea, we could all go. Did you tell Lia and Mommy about it?!" Emma kinda looks down as if she doesn't want to tell them..I start to get a bit concerned. "Em...Em what's going on?" I ask concerned "I wanted to go to meet with Lucy. I know that Mommy doesn't like her so I wanted to go alone." I sigh as I pour my coffee into my mug, before I can even start Emma continues "Mama I know the situation, I know our situation I'm not blind but I can't just act like she doesn't exist-" "I'm not telling you to ignore her Emma I'm just-" "But you're not letting me see her!" "Emma,please." "She's my mom too! I even have her name!" She says out of frustration, I internally freak out looking towards the stairs hoping both Camila and Amelia are still asleep and haven't heard anything. "Emma please just calm down, I know ok I know but Mommy doesn't know about that yet and I'm not sure it'll go over well with her....just please give me some time to tell Mommy-"
"Tell me what?" Camila says as she steps into the kitchen with a smile on her face, giving a kiss to both Emma and I on our cheek. "So what is it you have to tell me?" She asks as she pour herself some coffee.