Whats A Soulmate? (Camren)

"I Have Questions"

[Camila]
I'm not sure how exactly I'm suppose to feel. Anger, sadness, hurt? All or none? I feel like someone stole my heart and I have nothing else left. I feel like my daughter isn't even my daughter anymore...legally I guess she isn't, but she is. She's mine, I brought her into this world. I thought I was done competing with Lucy but it turns out I've underestimated her and I've been focused on the wrong girl in my life. Lauren clearly doesn't give a fuck about me or my feelings-

"Can we talk? Please?" I hear her say from the driver side as we are now making our way back to the house. We've been gone for a few hours, the girls are most likely asleep now.

"What more could you possibly say Lauren? Are you gonna tell me that Amelia isn't mine either?" I snap back at her, I'm seriously so over being lied to. I can hardly look at her, but I do see her deflate in her seat it almost makes me feel bad but I don't. I don't feel bad, not anymore.

"She's still your daughter, nothing has changed Camila-" I open my mouth to cut her off but she quickly continues "-and I know! Ok I know I fucked up but I..I can fix it we'll go to the courthouse and get the legal paperwork going again to drop Lucy's name-".

"No Lauren you can't just keep changing something cause it doesn't work for you anymore. You shouldn't have changed her name in the first place! Why did you do it? Were you mad at me? Did you want to get back at me for leaving? Cause I was moving on? Why, why the fuck would you change my daughters name without...without even talking to me about it." I'm choking back my own words trying to hold back tears because I don't want to cry in front of her but I'm devastated. I just have questions, so many questions. "Did you even care?" I whisper.

I feel Lauren pull the car over and she turns in her seat to face me. She makes a move to slowly place her hand on mine; I let her. "Of course I care Camila. I was scared, I was scared I'd lose all three of you and I couldn't let that happen. I tried to hold onto everything I could and at the time that felt like the most concrete thing I could do. I'm so sorry."

"Please just take me back to the house." I say as I turn to face the window once more just wanting to be with my girls. I hear her reply with a soft 'Okay'. Before I know it we're back at the house and I quickly make my way inside completely ignoring Lucy and up to the girls rooms. First Amelia's, I crack the door open and see her sound asleep mumbling a bit which indicates she's been out for awhile. I quietly make my way in and place a gently kiss on the crown of her head before I silently close the door behind me. I then head down the hall to Emma's room, I take a deep breath before I follow the same routine. I crack open the door to find her also sound asleep, as I approach I feel my vision begin to blur with my tears. "I love you so much baby. Please don't ever forget that." I whisper into her hair as I kiss the top of her head. I quickly leave the room and head to my own.

[Lauren]

"I've totally fucked up with her and with you and I just want to say that I'm sorry...for everything I've done and for bringing you into this mess." I say to Lucy though I don't expect her to accept my apology, I almost expect a slap across the face....but when it doesn't happen I'm left confused. "Lauren..." she sighs deeply while trying to hold her own tears back "Fuck you Lauren....for everything. For walking in and out of my life since the day I met you. For making me love you, for making my fall in love with Emma. For repeatedly breaking my heart and mending it back together. I've said my goodbye to Em, I'll sign whatever document you need to change her name back and once that's done I don't ever want to see you again." With that she leaves, I hear the front door open and close and I'm left in the same spot frozen. I'm at a loss for words, I sit there and just cry. I cry for Lucy, for Camila, for Emma and Amelia. I cry for me.

After a bit I make my way upstairs and I notice some noises coming from Camila's room. I knock and no answer, I knock again and she opens the door. I see an open suitcase on her bed with clothes slipping out of it. I push past her and begin to take things out "No, we're not doing this again. I won't let you." I say as I take things back into her closet. "Lauren stop!" "No! I don't know what we should do but all...I..I-..I know is that I was made for loving you." I'm crying again, I'm done fighting my tears. "I'm too young to be this hurt-" She's crying now "I don't know if I can trust you, I don't know what to do." She's slid down to the floor leaning against the side of the bed. I make my way to sit beside her, "I'm sorry, I know I don't do or say the right things all the time...or at all but I know that I'm sure about you, about us. I won't hurt you, not again. Please just give me a chance to make things right again. Please don't go."

A/N: I don't know anything about the legal process in changing your name. I'm just spit ballin' these general assumptions lmao. And also this story might end in another chapter or two. I feel like it's coming to an end either good or bad I don't know yet. Plus I got another fic idea so I'd like to explore that also. Let me know what you guys think? Am I hitting any feels? Yes. No. Maybe so?