Tour Baby | L.P

4-Jackson

Staying coped up in a hospital room for alomst a week makes you wanna go crazy. Aparently, I'm on extra bed rest becasue during labour Jackson was too big and may have ripped somethings so they had to stich me up. Joy! But I wouldn't change it for a thing! <3

The day I was finally able to leave was the day they had to go back on Tour. Luckily I had Eleanor, Perrie and Lottie to stay with me and help me with Jackson.

Putting him in the new baby carrier I smoothed my shirt and took a deep, shaky breath. The first time he's coming home. To my alone, new apartment that I had just bought before I went into labour.

Getting in the car was the hardest part becasue I was especially nervous. What if we get in a crash? What if he falls out of his seat?

All these questions going through my mind as Eleanor drove the car. I sat in the back seat, attending to my baby When we got home it was dark. It was weird....but I wasn't alone.

It was me, Eleanor and Jackson. Perrie had a concert tonight with her band, Little Mix and Lottie had a meeting for her new beauty products. Sadness overcame me as I looked around the emtpy, dark room.

He's not here....he left....He's on tour...I miss him.

Putting the baby carrier down I turned on the light and looked around. The only thing to break me from my trance was the loud baby cries.

I looked back around at my crying baby. I picked him up and swayed him back and forth, kissing the top of his head every now and then.

"Is my little baby boy hungry?" I cooed. He was sucking on his finger, wich indicated he was hungry. I sat down on the couch, pulled my shirt and bra down and put him to my breast. He latched almost emmediatly. He began drinking and ill be honest, it did hurt.

"Wow....you're a hungry little baby aren't you." I said with a little chuckle.

"Hey um....I gotta go. Are you gonna be okay for a little while?" Eleanor spoke up breaking me out of my trance. I looked over at her with a little smile.

"Yeah...yeah no it's fine." I said and she smiled back.

"Thanks, If you need anything just call. I love you girly!" She said walking out.

"Of course and I love you too!" I said chuckling. Once she left the tears started to fall. I rememebr Liam saying Goodbye, If you need anything call! I love you!

I looked back at Jackson as he was getting done.

"Mommy's okay...she just really really misses Daddy." I said with a little chuckle letting more tears fall down my face. I was exhasted after that so I made myself a tiny fruit bowl and made my way, with Jackson, to my bedroom. I placed him in his bassinet as he slept and I ate my food. Falling asleep not long after, with tear stains down my check.

*One Month Later*

Jackson, now a month old, has been having less naps and keeping me awake more at night. Wich altamilty made me exhasted.

I always got texts everyday from the boys asking how I was doing while they are on tour...none from Liam though. Everytime I look at Jackson I see Liam and it hurts. Hurts so much, but I love my baby boy to death.

After feeding Jackson, I put him on his blanket for tummy time and went to go make some lunch. Yawning on the way there I heard the door knock. Stopping what I was doing, I walked over to the door...hoping it was my package. But what I came face to face with made my heart stop.

I wanted to hit that person, bawl my eyes out and run away but my feet were glued to the ground. Because the last person I expected to come to my door, came. Jackson's father....the Love of my life. Had the balls to come and talk to me 11 months later.

None other than....Liam Payne