Tour Baby | L.P

Chapter 19- Lets Talk

As he led me out into the hallway we went into the little loft that was above the main area. You could look down at the front door and little bit into the living room from this angle.

''So what do you wanna talk about?" I asked running my hand through my hand and sucking in the corner of my bottom lip with nerves. There was a akward silence that feel over us, it felt.... suffocating.

"Uh yeah...um about the day you and Austin broke up...." he started off and I knew where this was going. Sucking in and holding my breath until he finished I didn't know what I was gonna say.

"You said you still loved me, and that you always did and I said the same thing....so what's going on?" He asked me and finally raised his head up from his feet and looked at me staright into my eyes.

"I-" I started off saying but he cut me off which I was silently grateful for becasue I didn't know what I was even gonna say.

"I'm so sorry, I'm so incredibly sorry for leaving you when you needed me the most and I don't have a legit reason too make this all better and I know you won't forgive me, but I hate myself for leaving. I hate my self every single day for what I did too you and Jackson and the pain I put you in every single day. I'm so sorry, and I know you will never forgive me and heck I wouldn't even forgive myself, but I love you with every fiber, bone, muscles, stream everything in my body! I can't keep losing you and I can't keep seeing you lose yourself over me, I'm so not worth it. I really messed up, and I know that, but I'm here now. I'm here...now.." he rambled off and finally stopped too catch his breath.

I could see his eyes were glazing over with newformed tears as I tried too comprehend everything he just said.

"You did...you really badly hurt me. And i hated you for that, a tiny peice of me still does. I always thought I wasn't good enough, or Jackson wasn't good enough for you. I always thought I did something wrong or that you truly didn't love me like you always said you did. I would sit alone in silence, rubbing my pregnant stomach and just cry. I would push my insecurities out more than they already were. I couldn't do it, but I love you so so much. With everything in me, and I always beleive love conquers all." I said but stopped for a breath as a felt a hot tear roll on to my cheek.

Liam looked at me with such a heartbroken, sorry face but when he noticed the rest he rushed over too me and cupped my cheek with his hand and whipped away the tear with his thumb.

It sent a shock through my body, his touch. Something I've missed so much and took for granite when we were together. It wad such a comforting feeling. I leaned my face more into his hand as he held it and slowly closed my eyes just sucking in the moment.

I felt another few tears slip out of my eyes, I've missed him so much. I know we still had so much too work through but I was willing too put in all the effort, work and time in the world too be back in his loving arms and call him mine.

The next thing I didnt expect was his lips on mine. The fammilar warm feeling and the taste of mint, he always tasted of mint and I missed it so much. More than words could explain.

I didn't hesitate too kiss back as more tears feel down my face. He pulled away and I already felt my lips grow cold without his warm lips.

"Don't cry baby....." he said as he pulled me into his chest and I cried even harder and wrapped my trembling arms around his waist.

"I just missed you so much....." I said throughout chocks of sobs.

"I misse you too baby, so so much!" He said and kissed the top of my head.

We stayed there for a solid 3 minutes before breaking apart and looking at eachother, that was when I noticed he was crying too.

"I wanna try again, more than anything. Only if you will too.." Liam croaked out as he whipped his own tears away.

"Of course I want too try again. But no secrets, no fights, well lay down what we want and how our lives will go. And we won't rush into things..." I said as I sucked in a breath controlling my tears. I've cried enough tears too last a life time this past year.

"Of course. Slow and truthful. I'm not letting you go ever again." He said as he leaned in again and kissed me. Oh how I missed those lips. The only lips I ever wanna kiss, ever again.

We smiled in the kiss and as we pulled away he looked into my eyes and I looked into his. I smiled, it's like everything was right in the world again. No more crying, no more pain. It was so worth the struggle.

"Let me take you out tomorrow." He said as he ran his hand through my hair. I bit my lip too try and hide my smile as I looked at him.

"I would absolulty love that." I said as I leaned up again and pecked his cheek. He smiled back at me as I sucked in a breath and got out of his grip. As much as I didn't want too, things had too be done.

"Awh baby, come back in already cold from your body leaving me." He whined in a joking matter.

"I have too get things done while he's asleep." I said chuckling and going down the stairs. He stayed at the top in the balcony as I reached the bottom.

I looked up at him from the bottom stairs and saw that he was already looking at me with a smile on his face and I smiled back at him.

"My girl again. You don't know how long I've wanted too say that again." He said as he kept staring at me, memorized. I giggled at him.

"Oh but I do.." I said with a wink and a smile and left too go do some dishes and laundry.

As I stood in front of the sink I started too wash Jackson's bowls, bottles and spoons when suddenly I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and lay his hands on my stomach. I knew who it was and I couldn't whipe the smile off my face.

As I was washing the bowl I felt his kisses on my neck and side of my jawline.

"Li...you have too stop that, i...i have stuff I have too get done." I breathed out and I felt him chuckle against my skin.

"I feels so good too hear you say my nickname again Chey..." He said and he slid his hands too my waist and kissed my neck one more time until he grabbed my waist and turned me around so my back was against the counter.

He leaned in and kissed me. I obviously kissed him back and wrapped my hands around his neck, running the tips on my fingers along the bottom of his hair line.

"I love you." He breathed out as we separated.

"I love you too." I said and pecked his lips one more time before turning around and finishing the dishes. He let out a little chuckle and moved around too the other side of the island/counter and sat on one of the bar stools. We just talked and caught up with eachother. I told him the things he's missed about Jackson and he told me about tour life.

We just talked and talked and it's as if nothing bad ever happened. It felt so good. I haven't been in this good of a mood since the day Jackson was born.

A/N
Hey guys, I'm so sorry I haven't uploaded in a while and I feel like I put this on every post I update but I Honeslty haven't had the motivation too write anything. I'm sorry. Thanks for sticking with my tho through all my crap uploads. Means the world too me.

As Bears first brithday is tomorrow, March 22nd, I'm posting today and I'm gonna post tomorrow.

I hope you enjoy. Love you all! Xo

Plus can you believe Bears gonna be a year old tomorrow. Ahhh. Where did the time go