Last Night

Like Never Before

I'm faceless, you can't save me.
Only anonymity, never satisfying.
Pretend it's not me because it's not.
A thoughtless world filled with thoughtless thought.
Brainless people, wish I didn't see them.
Mind messed up like never before.

Lost beyond found.
Just noise not sound.
Pretending to be loved but hiding away.
Locked doors are my friends,
they keep in the demons,
they swallow the sorrow.
I'm broken like never before.

People hate me.
They use me.
They blame it on me
That's why I don't do feelings.
I feel naive like never before.

They asked me.
We made a deal.
I held up my end.
You bent my trust again.
I'm angry, I'm deadly.
I'm mistaken like never before.

I'm left out,
that's next to stressed out.
Humans are dumb.
I shouldn't be talking.
Pretend I'm not here,
I don't want to be here.
*rolls eyes*
I'm forgotten like never before.

Shit goes wrong.
I screw up something.
I punch a brick wall.
My DM's flooded with people who "care".
Humans disgust me.
I shouldn't be talking.
I'm done with fake people.
I get fake love like never before.

I said yes!
Who cares?
Jealousy is a poison fruit that blooms in the hearts of humans.
Human nature is blind.
You can say something and people twist your words so much you just want to cry.
They lie and those scars in the hearts of the victims never heals.
Sorry if I offended you that's just the way I feel.
I lose friends like never before.

The bruises on my knuckles remind me of the pain.
The pain was blinded by rage.
And the rage blinded by pain.
It's a paradox and yet somehow it makes sense.
Sure, I'm crazy but what are you?
We're the puppets and our stage names are our puppeteers.
I feel alone even though people tell me I'm not.
When things start to go right they tear me down.
Life is hard like never before.

The words you speak hurt more than you think.
I laugh it off but inside I feel the pain cascade through my fragile inner self.
The outer appearance is a lie, I fake how I feel just like they fake their worry about me.
They think they're too good for me but I know how it feels to lose everyone you love to a thing called lies.
They say they don't mean it but the victims know the truth.
A truth hurts for a a bit but a lie hurts forever.
Suffocate me, my life, to get rewarded, your pleasure.
It hurts me but humans are too caught up in themselves to care or even see the means of life dying before their very eyes.
The horror of rumors is a very real thing.
They ask you sexual questions in order to make you question yourself more than you already do.
Just because we're together doesn't mean we're doing anything.
They won't stop assuming because I leave fuming.
I hate my life like never before.

They keep talking even when I dispel the rumors.
I tell them the truth, the whole truth, even if it is personal.
Anything to fight everyone,
to get them away from me.
They infest me and deject me.
"Who is she?"
"How is so and so?"
*laughs tauntingly*
Childlike innocence is something I want back.
Call me regressive,
I wish I was dead like never before.

They drain me and make me feel unworthy of life.
It seems like everyone.
Everyone irritates me at some point.
They make me want to hurt myself.
It's gotten to the point where I casually think about hurting myself.
"It'd be better if I was gone"
"Kinda wanna cut myself"
*shrugs*
I want to kill myself like never before.

What if I gave up?
Said no?
Pulled the trigger?
Took the...
Goddamn! Shut up head!
What can I do to shut up the voices!!
This is the end like I knew would
eventually come.