Here I am again.
A normal evening occurrence. Sat on my bed listening to oh wonder and crying.
Why?
I don't know.
I wish I did.
I wish I knew why every night I sit on my floor, the darkness surrounding me, smothering me in this dark, eternal, twisted hug.
The walls feeling closer and the weight feeling heavier and my chest closing more second by second until I hit the peak.
My breath feeling heavier and the cold air hitting my bare arms like a snowflake settling on stone, the loud thud of my heart racing in my throat.
The sharp item drawing me to it in the corner of my room that is now nothing but a blur, attractively glimmering catching my eye like a spotlight has hit it directly.
The urge resisted by my legs, numb. The darkness settles in my now grey eyes, my eyelids feeling heavier and heavier until they close forever.
I am in my happy place now, I can't be disturbed and I am finally at peace.
A/N
Don't be concerned. I don't tend to write about my feelings I just pick a topic and write so this isn't based on my feelings. How are you guys liking this?
