book of f-ckery

guys

yknow something

now that im not with gavin i have full control over my vessel

like

he and i had talked about possibly having a future together and i had asked him about getting a nose piercing and he said no immediately and proceeded to call them ugly

but

i really want a nose piercing

and now that we arent together

i can get one

and like

he said he had to approve of the piercings i wanna get

but like

hoe

its my fuckin vessel and ill do what i want with it

plus

he tried to get me to show off my vessel all the time

like

"you should wear short shorts more often"

"love the breast show off you should wear that more"

boi

no

im self conscious as fuck and you know it yet you want me to be uncomfortable for your pleasure

yeah no fuck that

how horrible can you be

honestly im starting to agree with mikaila on the theory that hes gonna be a rapist or an abuser when hes an adult

jesus

what did i see in him like honestly

kill me

but now that we arent together

i can get the piercings i want

i can wear what i want

i can do whatever the fuck i want with my body

and im thinking of coming out to the table as not cis/het

because fuck what they think

im free and can finally express myself yep this feels great

–lukaas