Give Love[COMPLETE]

Chapter 17: Love and Respect

Lyza's Pov:

I decided to see him that Friday morning. Nakita ko siyang nakatalikod sa akin. Dahan-dahan akong lumapit sa kanya at tumabi. Naramdaman niya ang presensya ko at napatingin siya sa akin.

"A-Anong sasabihin mo?" I asked.

"I missed you." Napatingin naman ako sa kanya. He was looking at me.

Did I hear it clearly? Did he say that he missed me? Napailing ako sa iniisip ko dahil imposible iyon dahil nga mahal niya si Cheska.

"Are you here to ask me to avoid you or perhaps to stop chasing you?" Malamig na sabi ko.

He sighed. "No." Napatingin ako sa kanya.

"Eh anong kailangan mo? I thought you wanted us to break up? Mahal mo siya, Cliche. H'wag mo naman akong gawing ganito, nagmumukha na akong tanga sa kahahabol sayo. At sa huli naman pala, wala akong mapapala dahil talo na ako! True love--hmm.." Nagulat ako sa mabilis niyang paghila sa batok ko at mapusok niyang hinalikan ang labi ko.

Tanga ako dahil tinugon ko ang halik na iyon. I realized how I longed for his kisses, for his love. I have chased him for many years, I'm only asking him to love me back but I ended up hurting myself because I love him deeply. I love him so much that this love is ruining me.

While we were kissing I realized that I forgot my love and respect to myself. Maybe because, I didn't really care about my dignity as a woman.

As soon as I realized that, my tears fell from my eyes which made him stop from kissing me. He wiped my tears with tender and he kissed my cheeks, "Baby, I'm asking for a space. I'm still hurt by the fact that your mom was the reason behind all my heartaches and misery. I'm still confused. We needed it," He cupped my face. "And I'm giving you the space to reflect our relationship. Do you really want this? I realized that you've done everything for me despite all the pains I gave you. Baby, stop asking for love because at this moment, I'm giving you love. Baby, I want you to be selfish for once. You have always been selfless. This time, I want to be selfless too. I want to give you space for everything. I realized that you kept on giving while I kept on accepting. I am not worthy of your love but I can't also give you up. I am giving you space in order for you to develop love and respect for yourself because I get hurt once you begged for my love, I'm hurt because you will do everything for me even though your dignity as a woman will be destroyed and I don't want that."

"So, our relationship is still pause?" I asked him.

"Yes baby. We needed this. You needed this and I'm sure this will be productive." He gave a half smile.

"What do you want me to do then?" I asked him. He held my face and kissed my forehead.

"Start loving and respecting yourself as a woman. I want you to choose yourself. Don't keep on choosing me. If you really want to be loved, then you have to love and respect yourself first in order to fully accept me as your man. I also don't want to have complications in our relationship in the future. This is all I ask of you, baby." He said before he turned his back. But before he left, "Love and respect yourself first baby and come back to me." My heart melted.