"stories" INCOMPREHENSION

5 •novacane•

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That spiky feeling
The afterward feeling
Sisi
The night you came over
A study proposal
The prospect was dismissed
You had to get on me
I was ridden
Day after day
All the time we foreplay
What did i think
That that would last forever
A long two weeks
Without your grasp
Your bite marks were fading
I was now so paranoid
Where could you be
Then my eyes caught a glimpse of you
A crowded place
I got closer
I swear I thought that was you
Now I'm seeing things

That spiky feeling
That afterward feeling
I could barely handle these spasms
Where were you
The only person I've ever been in
And with a frequency at that
First times are memorable
Multiple times are close to the stars
Sisi
I heard a slender girl say your name
I got closer to listen
I heard faintly
Sisi...she left
??doesn't make sense
Then I heard out loud
She's gone
Her parents decided to leave the country
I spaced out
Now I have withdrawal symptoms
Withdrawal from my mind
The questions in my head
They were deafening
You couldn't be gone
Not when i need you
Ran the way home
That spiky feeling
That afterward feeling

Sisi
I dreamed of you
Your pretty eyes
That renowned smirk I deemed naughty
Two weeks indoors
Dreaming of you
All the spiky feelings
Self pleasure
The afterward feeling
It vanished
You vanished
Your succulent lips
An emblossomed bliss

I don't know love or that we were ever in the sentence. The fact was known. But our stars crossed and in time I merged myself with you, not once, not twice. But enough to make me crave your touch like a drug.

I now wonder if you think of me
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I now ponder if you'd ever weep
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I muse on your spirits
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If you knew this would have to be
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If you ever did pity me
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Why didn't you explain
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What did you make of this
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Surely wasn't love
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But could hurt anyone the same
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I hope you miss me
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And feel the pain that I feel
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Maybe it wasn't at all your fault
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I can't help but feel resent

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That spiky feeling

The novacane

The afterward feeling

Like drops of rain

Cooling my skin

Numb the pain

Jizz down the drain

With eyes rolling

Mouth open

I'll end my craving.
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