Hurt

Trouble

So many emotions fill my head. Should I still be friends with Emma? Should I kill myself? Am I crazy? I don't know the answers to any of my problems. I know I'm going to be thrown in the loony bin, I feel it in my gut.

I'm unsafe, alone, betrayed. what am I to do just sit back and be tortured? Everyone says they are trying to help, they aren't, they just make it worse.

School, again. My sister wakes me up, my mom's at work and she won't be home until 9:00 tonight, not that I'm complaining. I don't want to talk to her about anything right now. My sister yells that the bus is at our house so I run out the door. By 5th period I was already called so many names fat, ugly, stupid all by Stella and her possie of course. At lunch my friend Liz was so sad, her dog was going through surgery and she was afraid he wouldn't make it so it was understandable, but it didn't make lunch very fun at all. After school I cooked dinner for my sister and did my homework. the doorbell rang at 7:30 p.m! My sister charged to the door, I noticed she was wearing a dress. Why though? I saw a scrawny boy walk in, I asked who it was but my sister rolled her eyes, he introduced himself "Hi, I'm Tim I'm sure you've heard about me." No! I haven't I shouted staring at my sister she just spat out "Tim's my boyfriend! Shut-up and deal with it!" I just let them go and finished my homework. At 9:00 p.m my mom still wasn't home, so I decided to watch tv when suddenly I remember that my sister had Tim over! I ran upstairs opened her door to find his tongue down her throught! She yelled "GET OUT!" At the top of her lungs, I pulled Tim off her bed and kicked him out! Once he was gone I asked my sister what she was doing and she started crying, and fell asleep on the couch. I think to myself *I didn't really kiss anyone till 8th grade, she's in 6th! All boys do is make girls sad, I'll just let her learn the hard way I guess.* I went to bed at 10:30 p.m and heard my mom walk through the door but I slept anyways.