Hurt

Role model

School is cancelled from all the snow we got last night. I haven't cut in ten days and honestly I feel better, happier. My sister said she was going to play in the snow, I'm alone but happy for once. My friend Megan has helped a lot, she has been there for me through this and so has my friend Alli, they both helped me and didn't leave my side when I was at my worst, they didn't judge me, or walk away like everyone else and I love them for that. I snap out of my thinking when I hear the back door open and my sister walk in trailing snow everywhere! I yell at her to take her boots off immediately, of course she ignores me and walks on the carpet, it's not that I really care I just don't want to slip and fall or step on wet carpet. It's nearly 12:00 when I hear my sister scream down the stairs "Tim just broke up with me!" I hear her sobbing to herself, I walked up the stairs and saw blood dripping from under her sleeves, I quickly asked her what that was and she started crying hysterically. I pulled up her sleeves to see both of her wrists covered in cuts, as I try to hold back tears I ask "Why?" and she responded "He called me a fat slut and that he just used me!" she sat next to me on her bed crying for about ten minutes and she mumbled "Don't tell mom." I agreed that I wouldn't as long as she told me what she used to do this she responded "Your blades." *I think to myself, I did this she only knew what cutting was because of me, she is now depressed and I basically showed her that it was ok to do that when it's not. I left her room and took a long shower and got lost in thought.*