We Don't Talk Anymore

NYE, Dances and Rooftops

Reyansh's POV :

I know that I was a dick to her. I shouldn't have done that.

I watched her as she got on her bike and drove away, telling me to pick Sam up on my way to the event. I had pissed​ her off. Probably even hurt her. I couldn't stop thinking about the look on her face when I denied anything that happened last night.

Last night, when I looked her in the eyes, so close to me, for a second this feeling came over me, that this beautiful girl in my arms is mine. My world.

I had realised it long ago, that I had fallen head over heels in love with my best friend. Mihi had slowly and very unknowingly made herself a big space in my heart. And I didn't even mind.

At the start, I was very much scared of falling in love with her. I had heard such horrible stories of how a relationship ruined the bond between two best friends. I didn't want that to happen with me and Mihi. I couldn't lose her. She meant the world to me! She had been with me for the worst years of my life and stuck through all the times I could've ruined my life. I very well knew that I am what I am, all because of her. And I couldn't be more grateful.

Last night, I was gonna kiss her. I admit that I wanted to kiss her so bad. She looked so fucking beautiful. Grey was definitely her colour. In fact she looked absolutely gorgeous in all colours. She was a stunner.

But when I saw the look of hesitance in her eyes, I decided otherwise. I didn't want to ruin anything between us. We were in the best phase of our friendship right now. And I didn't want anything to change.

But after that, and the following whole day, I couldn't stop picturing that hesitant look in her eyes. Maybe I was over thinking, but could that mean that she doesn't and probably never will picture me as anything other than her best friend?

With this fear, I didn't talk to her. And I think that maybe while trying to keep things the way they are, I might've disturbed the 'perfect phase' of us.

I needed to talk to her.

I hastily got in my car, and drove faster than ever. I picked Sam up on the way.

"Why weren't you answering Mahi's calls or texts, by the way?"

"Long story." I said, trying to avoid the topic.

"I know what happened between the two of you last night." She said. I looked at her with wide eyes, before bringing my eyes back on the road. "Yeah, so tell me."

"I'm in love with her." I said.

"You're what?!" Sam almost shouted.

"I thought it was obvious." I said.

"No, it is, but I just never expected you to accept it so easily." She said in a calmer voice.

"Anyway, so yeah. I wanted to kiss her last night, but she looked so hesitant. So I didn't. I don't want our first kiss to be something I initiated. I want it to be an 'in the moment' thing. Plus, I'm very scared, Sam. What if this ruins our friendship?! I won't be able to handle that. I can't afford to lose her. She means a lot to me." I ranted.

"I know. I understand where you're coming from. It's okay to feel this way. She'll come around." Sam said, trying to console me.

"Thanks, Sam. And don't tell her what I just told you." I added quickly.

She chuckled and drew a cross on her heart with her finger.

I smiled at her before pulling in the parking lot of the arena. Sam gathered all of her stuff and got down from the car. I turned off the engine and removed my seat belt, before turning around and getting my jacket from the back seat. Before getting out though, I took out my phone and dialled Mihi's number.