Shut Off // Andy Biersack x Reader

Part 11

You sit there on the sidewalk feeling rather bored.
You weren't sure how long you had been there since euour phone was off.
You know that it was around 11 when you turned it off. It had to be at least 12 by now...right?
It felt like it should be.
He isn't coming you are wasting your time dipshit. They are probably luaghing about it knowing that you are staying here waiting. You tell yourself.
Were you right? Were they just fucking with you?
Turning on your phone to check time to see how much longer you would have to wait, you see its 12:13PM.
It's only like another forty seven minutes just wait. You think, trying to reason with yiurself.
Damn were you bored.
Seeing that your ohone had stopped blowing up with messages and calls, you decide that it could be safe to message Evelyn.
You- Becuease you actually told him my location I'm nicknaming you heart becuease then atleast you can metaphorically have one...
Evelyn- are uou saying I don't have a heart becuease I told them your location after you told me to?? 😂
You- yersh. You asshole you weren't supposed to actually do it! Damn it, Heart!
You set Evylin's nickname for Evylin to Heart
Heart- ...................
You- why so glum Heart?
Heart has set your nickname to Smart Ass
Smart Ass- out fuck no!
You changed your nickname to Y/n
Heart changed your nickname to Cheater
Cheater- I want a divorce 😂
Heart has changed your nickname to Ex Friend
Heart- okay. We divorced now xD
Ex Friend-   ......-_-
You change dour nickname to Y/n
You changed Heart's nickname to Evelyn
You- truce?
Evelyn - truce.
You- I think I'm gonna leave. I told him I'd stay for two hours and if he could find me we could talk and there is like half an hour left and I am sick of waiting. He probably isn't gonna show.
Evelyn- keep in faith man.
You- I just read that with an Irish accent I don't know why 😂😂
(Boondock saints reference I'm sorry it was to perfect to pass up)
Evelyn- thank ya fpvery much 😝 *bows*
You- lol. Okay I'm leaving now. Goodbye.
Evelyn- byeee be safe! And I'd stay a little longer! You've already waited this long!
You- I guess your right.... okay... I'll give him until the it me is up.. speaking of which guess who's calling? 😩
Evelyn- be nice to him -_- pick it up too! Bye!
And with that, you decide to pick it up.
Clicking the answer button, you say in the best automatic voice you can, "Your call has been forwarded to the internet garbedge. To leave a voice mail, press end now."
"Ha.ha." You hear him say and you can practically see the eyeroll he just dod.
"Look I'm going to the bar I think you might be at and I want to know if you needed anything okay? And I should be there in like twenty or so minutes."
For some reason you liked hearing Andy's voice on the other side of the phone.
"To ask a quiestion, press end now." You say, keeping up the macanical voice.
"Y/n." Andy says, slightly less amused.
"I am sorry. There is no y/n here. If you would like to reach a, 'Amy Joe' press 1 now." You say in the same voice.
"Okay stop. As much as I find this amassing you are being rediculous and I need to talk with you." He says.
"Ughghhhh fine. I guess you're not stupid enough for that trick..." you go grumble begrudgingly.
"Gee thanks, y/n" He says with a luagh and you can't help but feel a small ghost of a smile form on your lups.
"And to answer your quiestion, biersack, no. I dont. I said if you can find me we can talk. I'm not sitting here for fun or to meet up with a super close friend." You say, rather annoyed with his niceness.
Why was he so ncie to uou!? What did he want?! Why was he like this?! You were always an asshole to him why would he care so much?!
"Yeah...I know..." He says, the amusement and such gone and you could've sworn you heard him sigh slightly and his tone get almsot....sadder? Surely you didn't hurt his feeling by practically calling him an annoyance right? What was so wrong with that?! This was like the bar all over again.
"Okay well...ug... shave you eaten anything?" He asks, almost as if he was trying to keep talking with you becuease he wanted to.
What was wrong with this man?
Was he a murderer or something??
"No." You reply
"Have you drank anything latley?"
"No."
"Did you atleast get some sleep since you've been gone??."
Spoken like a true mother.
"Would you like the truth, mom?" You say, infasizing the word 'mom'
"Just cuase I'm worried about you doesn't mean I'm your mom your know that right?" He says with a slight luagh.
"Whatever." You say
Deciding your done with the conversastion, you hang up.
You wait another twenty or so minutes watching people go by, hissing at some loud enough for them to hear just to see how they react.
Yes. You where that bored.
Suddenly, you see Andy amongst the crowed of people.
His outfit hair and face really stood out in the crowed.
Suddenly, you felt a wave of panic come across you.
The only instinct and feeling you had told you to do was to run.
Listening to the feelings, you quickly sit up from the sidewalk, grab your suitcase and  hurry down a random path.
However it was no use. Your hair was dyed with such a crazy vibrant color it stood out and he spotted you as soon as you started moving and, seeing the He had gazelle legs and you didn't, he caught up to you to quickly.
He grabbed your shoulder from behind since it was that closest thing he could reach and twirled you around to face him, enveloping you in a tight hug almost instantly wagter.
At first you tensed up beyond believe but you couldn't help but kind of sink into his embrace.
You didn't know when this happened but you almost liked his embrace.
Was it maybe becuease in the back of your head you missed them beyond belief?
You weren't sure why but you almost enjoyed the hug.
Were you gonna let Andy no this? Of course not.
After about thirty seconds of a tight hug, you push the giant off of you and do you best to look like you didn't like it.
"Can we get this over with? I'll give you half an hour to talk." You say begrudgingly.
"I just drove two hours to come and talk with you-"
"Half and hour is starting right now."
"One hour."
"Your losing time."
"One hour."
"Wanna make it fifteen minutes?"
And with that, you won the battle.
"Fine. Come on let's go get some food. You need to eat." He says.
"The last things I ate I threw up. I'm good."
"That's all the more reason you need to eat. Your going on an empty stomach." He tells you.
After about a minute you decide you'll goto where he wants and then just not eat.
Sitting down in a booth he orders you both water since you said you didn't want anything  UT he insisted.
"So. First quiestion. Why did you leave?" Andy asks once the waiter leaves.
"That's classified." You reply.
"I still have twenty five minutes of quiestion asking. So, tell me." He replies.
"Fine. I left becuease I did." You say.
"We'll circle back to that. Why did you ignore all of our calls and texts?" He asks.
"You know I may not be the one good at reading social ques but I gotta say you all suck  at reading the 'I don't wanna talk' que" You tell him.
"What do you want, Y/n? I have tried everything to make you happy but nothing seem to work!" Andy says, looking rather upset.
"What do I want...?" You repeat quietly, thinking to yourself.
"A new razor blade would be nice. Mine is pretty dull." You say matter of factly.
"What?" He quiestions worriedly about what you might mean by that.
"You know. Razor blades. Made for cutting things." You explain, slightly annoyed.
"Qhy do you want a razor blade, y/n?" He says worriedly but cautiously.
"Your twenty five minutes is up."
"I still have twenty more minutes. Answer."
"I'm not answering."
"Answer the quiestion."
"No."
"Y/n please don't fucking tell me that you just asked me for a new razor blade to hurt yourself with" He says and you can practically hear the lump that was forming in his throar.
"Never said those exact words. You a asked me what I wanted. Did you want me to lie?" You ask, annoyed with his behavior.
He wanted the truth he got the truth! Did he not want the truth? Or did he want the truth but not that to mp be the truth?! Jesus this man was ocmplicated. You liked it better when he was just a picture on your screen.
"Y/n is that really what you want? You want me to get you a razor so you can hurt yourself?" He asks again since you didn't give him a straight answer.
"Do you want me to lie or tell you the truth right now?" You quiestiin.
"Truth. What do you think?" He replies.
"Fine. What I want is for you all to fucking leave me alone. Nothing good is gonna come out of this. Your all fucked if I'm near you! And I fucking hate that I didn't midnight your wp guys company! So you know whst? What I want is to go back in time and change that one day so I didn't fucking run into you becuease everyone's life has turned to shit since then, biersack! That's what I fucking want! I wish I didnt know any of you! Are you fucking happy now!?" You say.
You hadn't noticed that you were now standing up leaning on the table, tears were falling down your face and you aphid accidintley gotten to loud and there was now almost fifteen other eyes on you, watching you curiously.
"Your twenty five minutes are up. Go back home." You say, speed walking out of the restaurant is until you were at a srpint.
You had said what he wanted to know, and, sadly, now almost evyperyone in the small restaurant now knows that too.
You finally stopped at a small bench that was about two blocks down since your legs were giving out from under you since you where rather weak from the lack of food water and sleep in your system.
You could help but cry slightly.
Did you really just say that out loud? You didn't even know if that's how you felt until you just blurted it out.
Was that really true? Did you wish you had never met them?
Your thoughts were interrupted by someone putting an arm around your shoukder.
"Hey kiddo what's wrong?" An all to familiar voice ran through your ears and you tried to wiggle out of his embrace.
"Ashley get your arm off me! I've had enough for one day! Go get Andy and leave me alone!" You yell at him, wiping away tears.
You felt that's what you truly want right now.
you wanted to be alone, them out for your life for their own good, and your bags.
You wanted your bags back
Why did you have  to leave them at the stupid restaurant??
"N/n what happened? Do I need to go slap Andy? If it'll make you wp feel better I will. He'll understand." Ashley says but it didn't make you feel much better.
"Y/n why don't we go somewhere more private so we aren't making a scene okay?" Ashley says softly, noticing people around you two were looking as the walked by giving curious annoyed or sympathetic looks.
Since Ashley was way stronger then you, you didn't exactly have a choice.
"Fine. Kill me too while your at it." You say with a sob.
"Don't say that, n/n." Ashley says, kissing the top of your head before lifting your light body with ease.
You were taller then 5'5 but you where skinny as he'll becuease you never ate.
Ashley picked you up bridal style as went to continue to carry you to a unknown destination to tpyou.
You buried your face in Ashley's chest, taking his comforting smell in.
You wouldn't usually be this sensitive but you had gone probably more then 72 hours without more then maybe 4 hours of sleep, you hadnt eaten in almost two days, and you whrre lost and comfused. You didn't know where you were going in life anymore.
You looked up only when you felt yourself being laid down onto your stomach.
You saw that you were in Andy's car in the back seat laying on top of Ashley.
You felt his calm steady breather under you as you proceeded to cry for another few minutes.
God did you hate crying in front of other people.
Once you got calmed down enough so you where sobbing or anything, AHSLEY cosously asked, "So, so you wanna tell me what happened?"
"I don't k-know what I'm doing anymore, Ashley " You cry into his chest as he calmly strokes your hair.
"I know that it can be hard sometimes but you just gotta keep going to get through them." Ashley tells you softly.
"I d-dont wanna though. I have been for my whole life! I'm done with it Ashley!" You say, crying harder.
"Don't say that, y/n. It's been hard cuase you're scared to let anyone in so you fight it al9ne and that's a hard thing to do. Especially to keep it up foe more then 14 years." He tells you, giving you a tight hug before rubbing your back.
"I'm such a-an asshole why d-do you guys care so m-much about me?" You ask.
"You need help. And when someone needs help uou don't just leave them alone. Friends stick y together you know?'' He tells you
"I shouldn't be here. I should've stuck with my family. It should've been me." You cry.
Every word you just said felt like the total truth.
That's the one consistent thought that always ran through your head everyday.
'I should've gone with them'....

TIME SKIP TO 22 YEARS LATER

You sit next to Ashley with your arm wrapped around his neck as you watch your kids run around outside together.
Yes you had married Ashley. Only after a year when Andy died when you two were engaged. You missed Andy but you where happy with Ashley and your kids.
Your oldest son, who was ten, you guys named after Andy.
You were happy with your life.
It only took 28 years for it to work out.

Hahaha just kidding I'm sorry. Yeah no that's fake I'm just tired and wanted to add something that would make everyone hate me for some reason 😂 yeah no but the story will still be going on from where you are in the car with Ash and the whole twenty two years later shit is BS.
Okay love you my lovely readers! Stay awesome! MWAH!