Shut Off // Andy Biersack x Reader

Part 15

Previously:

He found your almost ghostly white body laying in a pool of your own blood with bleeding cuts that spelled something out.
Holding your arm out to quickly read it, it read, "get it out"......

Alarmed at what the hell that might mean, he quickly throws the thought away for now and goes to check your pulse.
It was there, but very weak.
"ASHLEY CALL THE AMBULANCE!" Andy yelled as loud as he could but there was no response.
"ASHLEY!!" He yelled even louder and this time there was a response.
"Yeah?" Came a lazy voice from down the hall.
"CALL THE AMBULANCE! NOW!" Andy shouted.
He had wrapped a towel around your arm and wrist where it was bleeding and held it tightly and he held your limp body on his lap.
"Please don't die. Please. Your okay." He whispers worriedly and he holds your arm tight and brushes some of you hair out of your pale face.
"They are on their way" Ashley says, bursting into the room and running striaght to where you two sat on the floor.
"Is she alive?" He says, kneeling down.
"Yes but her pulse is almost nonexistent." Andy says worriedly, holding your body into his chest.
What felt like years but was probably only minutes you heard pounds in the door and Ashley practically telaported to get it.
Not long after did two paramedics come in.
"Oh come on, y/n..." the one with dark brown hair murmurs as they rush over and take your body carefully from Andy.
Andy didn't wanna let go of you but he wasn't gonna fight it becuease he knew it wouldn't help you right now.
Ashley and Andy rode to the hospital.
Andy drove while Ashley called the others and told them the situation a ND that they were gonna be missing practice.
Jinxx was the one on the phone with him and insisted that they were gonna meet them at the hospital.
Once they reached it you were healed off to a back room where they weren't aloud.
They sat in the waiting room and the medics words continued to run through his head.
"Oh come on, Y/n..." Did he know you? Was he one of the medics that had aways come to your house?
Did he know you personally? Had you attempted suicide that many times that the medics knew you by name and looks?
Was he your friend? Was he your ex?
Was it all of the above?
Thoughts swarmed through his head as he worriedly tapped his foot on the white tiles of the brightly lit hospital.
Ashley sat next to him looking just as worried.
"Um.. sir... can I ask why you have blood on your hands?" A worried looking nurse asked, walking up to the two men.
"Oh uh it's um someone else's blood I forgot to wash off.." He says and the nurse gave him a mortified look.
"No no not like that um a friend of mine uh.. tried to commit suicide and I got her blood on my hands as k was waiting for the medics to arrive..." He said.
This didn't sound much better but his mind was on other things and the nurse understood.
"Oh.. I'm so sorry.. If you would like to wash it off there is a bathroom right down that hall on the left." She says, pointing to the direction it was located.
"Thanks I think I'm gonna go do that." He says, a bit shikily.
"Come find me if anyone says we can come see her okay?" Andy says and Ashley nods before Andy gets up and eaves to go wash the blood off.
The minutes dragged on and on until it had been about five six hours.
Jinxx, Jake, and CC had all arrived by now and they all sat there in silence for the most part.
Finally, a doctor come out and says, "Are you mister Beirsack?"
To which Andy nodded.
"I'm happy to tell you that y/n is in stable condition and has enough energy to scream at the staff, though I believe that she could still find the erpnergy to do that half dead, it's good to know she can. She asked however that if you all decide to come that no one is to talk about it, ask why dhe did it, or tell her to stop. She is a very unopen person so I wouldn't try it personally." The doctors says.
"Um... I'm sorry but do all of the staff here know her personally or something??" Ashley asks the question that had been on his and Andy's mind this whole time.
"I wouldn't say personally but sadly y/n is one of our more usual patients. I'm not aloud to give away confidential information but I assume you all know the attempts she has made." The doctor tells them.
Had it truly been that many times? Was the quiestion that ran through all of their heads.
"Well I have other patients I must attend to but I would go visit her so our nurses don't start quitting." The doctor says, throwing them a friendly smile before heading off to another hall.
The boys went up to the front desk a ND got your room number before heading down to say hi.
CC had gotten you a teddy bear from the gift shop too so he brought that in for you.
They entered the room to see you yelling at the staff, letting them know exactly just how stressed out and upset you were.
"Hey hey hey hey hey! Y/n calm down!" Ashley says, running over to carefully out your usable arm down and put a finger over you lips softy to make you stop shouting.
You looked at him dead in the eyes with bloodshot eyes.
You had been silently crying as you where screaming and you were beyond sleep deprived at this point.
"Y/n, sweety, you gotta calm down okay? They just wanna help you" Ashley says calmly, stroking your hair softly as he speaks.
And, by some mirical, it worked and you just nodded.
"Ashley can you please do me a favor?" You ask softly.
"Sure what is it?" He replies.
You pull him jn closer before saying, "please pull the plug."
"No! Y/n we all care so much about you! We can't just let you die!" Ashley tells you.
Cc makes his way to your bedside before kneeling on his knees and holding the black furred bear up for you to take.
It had black fur, brown paws, black eyes, it also seemed to be holding some sort of note.
It read,
Hey n/n. We all really care about you and would appreciate it a lot of you would stop trying to take yourself from us becuease we would all be really sad and hate that. I dont know you all to well but I classify you as a friend and I would love get to know you but if you take yourself away we cant you know?
Lots of love and mental hugs becuease I know you hate psycal contact. ~ CC
You look up from the card and give him your best smile and blow him a kiss which makes him smile like a dork.
"So how are you feeling kiddo?" Jake asks.
"Peachy" You reply sarcastically.
"You all don't have to stay you have lives to live. I will be able to leave in a few days." You say.
"They already have you a release date?" Andy asks, a little surpised.
"No. I just memorized the time when they usually let me go." You state.
"Okay that isn't good that you have been here so much you memorized that.." Jinxx murmurs in the background.
"Well maybe I just have a super good memory" You say definsivly.
"Do you?" Andy asks.
".....shut up okay." You say in defeat.
"Well we are just glad your okay." CC says with a smile.
"Thanks. You guys seriously don't need to stay though. You have lives to live. Plus you are going on tour in like a month. Don you all need to practice and shit?" You say.
"Month being the key word in that sentance. We have enough time."Andy tells you.
"Plus we aren't leaving you." Ashley adds.
"If I ignore you all long enough will you leave?" You ask.
"No. No we wont." Jake says.
"Hm..." you murmur thoughtfully.
"So are you hungry?" Andy asks.
"No. Plus they are giving me food through stupid tubes." You say begrudingingly.
They had to give you food that way becueaew, A, yU were way to skinny and B, you refused to eat for as long as you were there.
"Shit that can't be fun" uou hear CC comment and you fthrow him an unfriendly look.
"Sorry..." you hear him murmur as she shrinks behind the others.
You all talked for a few hours, a huge would acasionally pop in to check on you.
Everything was alright until one rather bitchy nurse came in and very rudely told the boys to get out so you could rest.
"Hey don't be an asshole to them!" You yell at her.
Mistake 1.
"You need to rest, lay down." She throws over her shoulder, ignoring your comment
"Fuck you! Don't tell me what to do!" You say heatedly
Mistake 2.
"Miss you need to stop yelling." She says, now turning around to look at you.
"I'm not doing anything." You say ignorantly .
"Miss l/n I will make them give you sleeping drugs if you don't listen. You need resr." She says annoyedly.
"Fuck you bitch you can't do that! I'm fine! Leave us all alone!"
Mistake 3. Big. Ass. Mistake.
"Doctor Mathews can you please get in here!" The nurse shouts.
"Oh sure! Go run to your daddy! You whimp!" You retort.
"Y/N!" YOU hear Andy yell at the other side of the room.
Shit. Now your 'parent' was here.
He had left for around two minutes to walk back into the room and find you calling the nurse names,
You hadnt even heard the others telling you to stop.
"IT'S THAT BITCH'S FUALT! SHE IS BEING AN ADSHOLE!" you yell at him
"I don't care what you think she is being! Apologize!" Andy says sternly.
"I'm not five! And your not my dad!" You say indignantly.
"Your acting like a five year old! Apologize! Now!" Andy says, pointing at her, waiting for you to apologize.
"Fine. You know what? Fuck her. What can she do that is possibly bad to me?! Nothing! She could give me an overdose on 'accidint' and kill me and I could give less of a fuck! She is threatening to give me sleeping drugs against my will, they are force feeding me, they are keeping me locked up in this prison! So what?! What could possibly be so much worse that she could do that she isn't already?!" You yell at him.
"Y/n calm down." Ashley says, kneeling next to you and grabbing your hand.
"You are being dramatic, y/n! They are just trying to help you!" Andy says back.
"IF THEY WANTED TO HELP THEN YOU COULD'VE LEFT ME ON THE GROUND TO DIE!" You nearly screamed, your voice was lost at the end though.
"Y/n you need to calm down. Jake get Andy out of here before they have another screaming match." Ashley says, really not wanting you two to have another screaming match in a hospital.
As though jake had been waiting for these commands, he practically telaported over to Andy and grabbed him by the shoudler and walked him out.
"We are gonna go to and give you guys some privacy.." CC says uncomfertably, and with that, jinxx and cc walk out of the room, leaving you and Ashley alone.
"Y/n please try to calm down. You stressed out, you don't like hospitals, your angry, I know. But please please take a deep breath. Please." Ashley says, gently taking your hands in his.
By this time, the nurse had left. She did what she needed.
"Ashley I just don't wanna be here anymore! I just wanna go and everyone keeps stopping it and I cant keep this up, I can't. I used to have two medics come to my house almost every three days on their off hours just to check up on me. I'm a mess and a liability. I'm sick of this. I should've gone with them but I didn't and that's not fair." You say, your vocie was strained as you finished your speech.
God did you hate about talking about your personal life but, for some reason, it wasn't Soooo hard with Ashley.
"But I don't want you to go. You are like family to me, to all of us. And your brother, sister and parents wouldn't have wanted you to leave. They would want you to live a happy life, to start fresh. It's okay to move on. Just keep them in your heart. Know that they would want you to keep living. You didn't cuase that. You didn't know." Ashley says softly, stroking the side of your fist with his thumb.
"If you need someone to talk to we are here. All of us would be more then happy to listen. We can help you." He adds after a second.
"I don't wanna talk about my bullshit and bore you guys. It's not your problem and it never should be." You say, looking down to avoid his gaze.
"Hey." He starts, bringing your gaze back up to meet his own.
"Any problem of yours is a problem of ours." He tells you.
"You are such a cliche. That's one of the most used lines in this kind of situation." You say with a small luagh and an eyeroll.
"You know it's true though." He says with a small smile.
"Is it though?" You say doubtfully.
"I never lie." He responds.
"That's a lie." You tell him.
"Shhhhhh." He says, putting his finger to your lips where you promptly bite him.
"HEY!" He yells in alarm and grabs his finger.
"That hurt!" He says with a look of alarm.
"Don't put your finger to my lips then." You reply making him roll his eyes but smile with amusement.
"So are you alright?" He asks,moving some messed up hair from out of your face.
"Mhm.." you say with a small nod.
"Okay. They should be back in a little" He says and you nod.
"If I ask for something, would i be able to be 100% sure that you wouldn't make it into a normal thing?" You asked hesitintally.
"Yes." He says.
"Okay um..." you say and then ask the quiesrion.
However it was literally so quiet he had to ask you to repeat it.
"Can I have a.." you say quietly again but practically mouth the last part.
"One more time you gotta actually say it." He says.
"Can I have a hug.....?" You ask quietly, obviously nervous about asking.
"Sure." He says, a dorkish smile on his face as he practically glowed.
He leaned over the bed and carefully wrapped his arms ender your back as you wrapped your good arm (as in the one that didn't have cords attached to it) and wrapped it around his shoulder rather lightly and kind of awkwardly.
You were not good with hugs anymore.
The only reason you asked was becuease you felt the need of a hug from your family and he was the ,closest thing to that.
"Hey remember when you said I was a lier earlyer?" Ashley murmurs into your neck as your hug became more comfertable and not as awkward on your part.
"Yes...?" You say questioningly.
"What if I told you I was lying when I said yes that I wouldn't make this a thing?" He asks.
"Anndd that's enough." You say, quickly pushing him off of you.
"No I'm just joking I wont." He luaghs and you give him the stink eye before putting your arm into he air again, gesturing him to hug you again to which he happily abliged....

A/n

Hello peoples! I would just like to say I'm sorry this was out like three days later then I meant it to be out. I wanted to do it yesterday but I was super busy but here! I hope you liked it!
Stay awsome guys! MWA!