Shut Off // Andy Biersack x Reader

Part 13

Please stop! Make it stop! I cant do anything!
All you could do was think. You weren't able to speak for some reason, only choke as your lungs slowly filled with smoke.
You could barely see from all the smoke it was terrible.
How do you navigate through the house you burnt down that you no longer remember?
You couldn't find your family but the echos of that one voice. That one familiar voice, kept running through the house and piercing your eardrums.
This isn't happened! Please not again! Please!
Your thoughts were being screamed but as much as you tried to speak all that would come out IA a choked cough.
And that's when you finally found them.
Your sister was crawling on the floor as if she was a zombie and had had her legs torn off.
Your father's body layed limp on the kitchen floor, burning as you watched with horror and regret.
Your brother was holding your mom, trying to get her to stop screaming as she was clawing to get away from him.
"You did this. You deserve to see what happened that night." The voice spoke out.
No matter how much you choked or tried to get their attention, no matter how much you tried to get them out with your sister, it's as if you were a ghost. Invisible.
"MOM!!" Was the fading scream you as you slowly passed out from lack of oxygen even though you had fought the feeling for an extra three minutes.

You shoot up
Your breathing was uneven and heavy, you were choking half to death and you had a cold sweat.
You frantically look around the room only to see your in the room Andy had originally let you use.
You shoot up to your feet in a panic at run to the bathroom.
You hated this feeling so much.
Washing your face in freezing water, you lean on the sink, you your arms to keep you balanced on it.
You carefully look into the mirroir and see you were still wearing makeup so, deciding to do your best to distract yourself from the voice that still rung in your ears, you quickly take it off.
Finding that that didn't help at all, you go to your phone and turn it on to see that it's 12:43AM
You sit Indian style on your bed and grab your pillow and throw your face into it.
Your breathing had evened out a little but not a whole lot.
Why isn't this voice leaving?? You think to yourself as your eyes are covered by the pillow, making your vision black.
You shakily lay back down on your bed and take out your phone in an attempt to distract yourself but it was no use.
After the tenth minute of the voice refusing to leave, your breathing picked up and you felt that this is what going crazy felt like.
"Leave me alone!" You murmur, eyes screwed shut.
"You deserved it" it repeats.
"Shut up!"
"You did it."
"Shut. Up!" You repeat, breath quickening even more.
"It's your fualt they died."
"I SAID SHUT UP! SHUT THE FUCK UP!" You nearly screamed, tears now running down your face, your whole body was shaking and you felt like you were gonna pass out by your breathing patterns wp that you also had no control over at the meoment.
"You deserved to see it and you will again." The voice sounded calm, but almost as if it was disgusted to speak to you.
"I KNOW IT'S MY FUALT! LEAVE ME ALONE!" You yell again shakily.
As if whoever this voice belonged to was in the room, you started throwing anything you could touch in any direction you could see.
"You shouldn't be alive, y/n." The voice speaks again.
"I KNOW! I DIDN'T MEAN TO! I DIDN'T WANT TO!" You screamed, throwing the glass of water that had been placed on your nightstand probably when you all got home.
The glass had hit the wall and shattered onto thousands of small pieces was the water ran down the wall.
"You still did it. And your gonna do it again." It says.
"I TOLD THEM THAT!" You scream, throwing the lamp off the nightstand where is rolled it's way to the tv before stopping.
You had ended up accidentally rolling off the bed and swung your fist into the wooden nightstand which, for some unknown reason to you, made your knuckles, hand and wrist start bleeding, not to mention you had also accidentally thrown something else that was made of glass and landing in it which made the glass go into your shoulder.
you had pushed the nightstand so it now laid on its side and you quickly rifled through the top drawer and grabbed that silver handle you knew to well.
"JUST LEAVE!" You scream, slicing the blade across your skin swiftly.
"You deserve everything you got. They didnt."
"PLEASE LEAVE!" You yell again, slicing another part of your wrist open, however this cut was deeper then the last.
"It won't work." The voice speaks.
"I DON'T FUCKING CARE" You say, slicing your skin for the third time.
Somehow in your Brian you felt like this might Somehow make it leave.
It didn't make the voice leave, only a lot of blood.
As the voice continued to talk, you felt like you where gonna pass out.
Your head was spinning from this voice for some reason.
"Y/n are you-Jesus Christ! Ashley go get bandages and a wet rag!" You hear a faint voice speak.
You continued to scream at whatever was talking to you as you continued to cut open your already terribly scarred skin.
That is, until you felt hands forcefully take to from your hands.
Whoever was near you didn't make you better becuease you only proceeded to scream now inchorherent things louder then before and try to push him off.
Only then was it the last time the voice spoke to you that night.
No matter how you fought and pushed this creature off of you it didn't work. The thing was much stronger then you. Also the blood from your wrists was pouring down onto your hands, making it difficult to really try and get this thing off of you.
Whatever it was, you were completely soaking it in blood.
"GET OFF ME! IT'S RIGHT! I DESERVED IT!" You scream and you continue to struggle to get out of the grasp.
"Y/n calm down your bleeding really badly!" You hear the voice say.
This one was different thiugh.
However it still sounded familiar, it was unmistakably not the same voice. This one didn't have disgust in its tone as it spoke, it sounded warmer, more worried.
After way three minutes you where to tired and drained to keep struggling and your throat hurt to much to keep screaming so you layed there in whoever's arms, eyes screwed shut and tears falling from your eyes and blood poured from your wrist and arm, soaking your shirt and the thing.
"Thank you, Ashley. Come on let's get you to the bathroom." The familiar voice speaks again but this time it was much easier to hear.
Was this Andy? It would make sense since you were in his house...
You hesitintally opened your eyes slightly just quick enough to confirm this was Andy wp before Ashley turned out he bathroom light and blinded everyone.
Andy had set you down on the counter and you were able to open your eyes again.
Yes, you were a mess, you had stained your skin and cloths and probably some of the carpet but holy shit did you do a number on Andy's clothes.
It looked like he had dyed all of his clothes with the blood of a human he had just sacraficed or aometh8ng.
While most of is clothes he wears on stage and such are black, this was not the case at the moment.
He had been wearing a white T-shirt and Batman Pajama Bottoms.
Ashley was holding your wrist, most likely apply pressure to it, while Andy got the sink water to a good tempature before having Ashley put your wrist in the waater.
And let me tell you it stung like a MOTHERFUCKER (that wasn't supposed to be caps. Auto correct did it but I'm going with it 😂) and, if you hadn't been so weak at the moment, you would've fought against them.
You sat in silence while the boys whispered to eachother as Ashley continued to apply a rag to your wrist and holding it with a firm grip while Andy plucked glass out of your arm, cleaning the small bits of blood that came after, then he moved onto your knuckle which had drying blood on it. and a splinter or two.
Once your wrist stopped gushing blood so much, they bandaged it up carefully.
Once that was done Andy proceeded to wrap you in a tight hug, his forehead rested on you shoulder.
Not long after this Ashley gave you a tight and protective hug.
"You scared us have to death, N/n. What happened?" You hear Ashley ask you quietly.
You didn't repsoned, you didn't look at them, you didn't feel anything but the sting of your knuckles and arm.
You were barely breathing at the moment. You felt it was unnecessary tho breath like normal at the moment. To much work.
Your expression was blank, your skin paler then usual from the loss of blood.
"I'll be right back." Andy says.
He sounded shaken.
You hear his foot steps slowly fade away until you can no longer hear them.
"Let's go sit on your bed. okay, n/n?" Ashley says softly and picks you up and sits you down gently on your bed.
you sit still, not changing at all when he sits you down.
Your hands stay on your lap, your head tilted down and your expression remains blank.
You both sit in silence for probably about a minute or two before you feel the bed shift beside you and Ashley is now kneeling in front of you.
He takes the wrist that was bandaged delicately in his hands and carefully examins the white scares that covered almost your entire arm.
Your eyes wandered slightly with his movements.
Even though you couldn't feel anything at the moment and felt empty, you where still on guard.
Why? You had no idea.
You watched as he delicately let his fingers trace the many different white lines that would be permanently painted on your skin.
You felt him place his lips on the white bandages that covered your new cuts and lightly kiss it before looking up at you.
"Why did you do this?" He asks softly, eyes staring directly into yours.
"I tried to get the voice out." You murmur, breaking eye contact almost immeditally.
You were to drained to fight about telling him.
"What voice, N/n?" He asks in the same quiet and soft tone.
"I-" you start to make up an excuse to not tell him but thankfully your saviour came (a saviour will be there Am'a right?.....I'll stop now...)
"Hey how is she doing?" Andy asks.
He was obviously exhuasted.
Both of them appeared to be.
"" can answer for myself you know?" You say, annoyed that he would ask Ashley whole you were literally right there.
"Sorry didn't think you wanted to talk." He says sincerely, stopping at the bed.
"How are you feeling?" He asks, this time the quiestion is directed at you.
"Shitty. You guys can go back to bed you both are tired. I'm fine." You say.
"You just woke both of us screaming your head off. We thought you were getting axe murdered and we come in here to find your room torn to shit and you bleeding on the ground. You aren't fine and we aren't going back to bed." Andy states.
"....." you opened your mouth to fight back but you didn't have much of a case here.
He was right.
"Here, drink this. You lost a lot of blood and it'll help." Andy says, handing you a cup that had some kind of orange liquid in it.
"I don't need it. I've had worse." You state matter-of-factly.
"Okay, A, that isn't good at all, and B, you are drinking it becuease I just got the shit scared out of me and I am currently covered in your blood becuease you were kicking and screaming at me and I believe that you bit me." He says, handing you the glass.
"Okay. I did not bite you." You defend.
"You tried." He states, holding the glass out farther so it was now directly in front of you.
"No thanks." You say matter pushing the glass away from you.
"Y/n drink it. please." Andy says, nudging the glass closer.
"No." You say, pushing the glass closer to him.
"Please." He replies, nudging the glass back to you.
"No." You say, repeating your actions from before.
"TAKE THE DAMN GLASS!" Andy says in a high pitched shout, making you jump a little but Ashley completely fall off the bed with a shout of alarm.
"See look apwhat you have done." Andy jokes, luaghing a bit at ashley.
"Fine." You say begrudgingly.
"Oh get up partner." You say annoyed by Ashley's skittish actions.
You begrudgingly take the glass from Andy's hand.
"Thank you" Andy says once you take the cup.
"Yeah Yeah yeah." You say, rolling your eyes.
You take a small sip of the weird liquid and nearly spit it out onto Andy's already gross shirt but you force yourself to swallow it.
"This tastes like platypus farts!" You choke out, disgusted by the thing he handed you.
"Otsego just orange juice you big baby." Andy luaghs.
"Why would you have this in your house!? Or in fifty feet of your house?!" You say, utterly bewildered.
"Becuease some people like it." He says.
"Like the platypus that made it?" You say sarcastically, earning a smirk and an eyeroll from andy.
"Just drink what you can." He states.
"I'm done. I've tried your poison. I'm done." You state.
Ashley had gotten his composure back by now and proceeded to stand up.
"Andy you need to change. You look disgusting. And same with you, Y/n." Ashley says.
"He says right. I'm gonna go get changed...just...don't die okay?" Andy says uncomfertably before leaving the room.
"You need to change. Do you need me to leave?" Ashley says.
"er... I didn't think there was a problem if you stayed but if you want you can leave?" You say, a little confused by his quiestion.
You didn't really care to get changed in for the of your family. It was never a big deal and, being alone for years with no human contact other then the hospital who help you get changed anyways, it never mattered.
"Okay.." Ashley says, starting to turn around.
You can't help but luagh slightly at his ridiculousness.
"what?" He asks, obviously hearing your amused luagh.
"Hm?" You ask, turning around to look at him.
"What's funny?" He asks.
"You." You state.
"What did I do?" He asks, rather confused.
"I don't know it's just like in everything I've ever watched with you in it it's like your always super outgoing and kind of a manwhore but you get really awkward when it comes to someone changing. It's just amusing." You state.
"What?? I am not awkward!" He says in a disgruntled tone.
"mhm." You say, clearly unconvinced.
Just as he's a out to say something you swipe off your shirt becuease the blood was starting to dry and you needed to get it out.
You saw Ashley's eyes grow in alarm when you did this cuase you where still facing him.
It wasn't the biggest deal since you still had a bra on but it was also a see through bra practically
(You know what I'm talking about. Also you brought it cuase it was comfertable. That was it.)
Just then you hear a knock on your door.
By now however you had turned around and started on your jeans.
"Hey am i okay to come in?" You hear Andy's voice call from the other side of the closed door.
"Yeah come in." You call, throwing your jeans into the pile with your shirt.
And, before Ashley could give Andy any warning of the scene he was about to walk in on, you both heard,"He- OH MY GOD I CAN COME BACK!" giving him a confused glance, you say, "er....why?"in the most curious and inoccent voice they had ever heard you use.
"Also let me say you change fast my good sir." You state, u clipping your bra.
"Ash-we should go." Andy says, very bewildered.
However, Ashley was to bewildered himself to hear, much less respond to andy.
Not becuease he felt he was practically getting a free strip show but from the fact that his FEMALE friend was stripping down completely naked in front of two men without a care.
"To two are pussies." You state, adding the bra to the pile.
"And I guess that since you guys seem to be totally bewildered by this I'll just change my underwear tomorrow." You say.
Becuease where you closet and door to your room where located (-they where on the same wall) Andy had an absolute great shot of your front.
You slip on your fluffy Pajama Bottoms and then a loose baggy shirt.
When you turn around to face them, you can't help but roll your eyes at their facial expression.
You pick up the small pile of cloths you had created and, after throwing your bra across the room into your hamper, you went ot the bathroom and started soaking your cloths.
"What just happened?" Andy whispered to ashley as you where in the other room
"I-i really don't know." Ashley replies.
Once you are done cleaning your cloths of all the blood, you walk into your room and flip on your TV as if there wasn't a ginormous chaotic mess around your room, not to mention the blood splattered on your floor.
"Okay boys I'm gonna watch TV. Go to bed." You say, knowing how tired they would have to be right now.
"Y/n you gotta sleep." Andy states.
"I slept. I'm good on sleep. Forever." You say, infasizing the last word you spoke.
"Y/n I'm not leaving you up here all alone to watch TV for the rest of the night. You need sleep." Andy says.
"Okay. Dad. What do you want me to do? I refuse to go back to sleep. Would you rather me sit here in silence for the rest of the night letting my thoughts take me becuease if I'm being honest I'll probably end up having another episode like that. So if that's what you want then so fucking be it I will sit here in silence for as long as you fucking please." You say, shooting your head to look at him as you spoke the words with a snappish tone.
"No. I dont. I just don't want you to stay up for the rest of the night watching tv. Atleast not alone in a messy ass room." He states.
"Well I can't clone me so what do you want from me." You say.
"Hold on let me see what cc is doing." Ashley offers.
"Seriously you are getting me a babysitter?!" You ask in disbelieve.
"No! I just want you to have someone talk to and, if he is awake then it'll be perfect. Also he loves horror movies and I know you do too." Ashley says.
"Does any of us not like horror movies?!" Andy asks Ashley rhetorically.
"He isn't on so I'm assuming he is asleep." Ashley says after a minute.
"I can stay up." Andy offers as if he had been waiting the whole time to say it.
"Andy your exhuasted you need sleep. I'm fine." You say.
" after that episode, I'm not tired anymore. I'll stay up and sit with you. You can even ignore me if you please but I would really like to make sure you are okay tonight." He says scincerly.
"Okay..I guess... but go to bed if you're tired. Understood?" You say and he rolls his eyes but nods.
"Okay. Okay going to bed cuase I'm passing out. You two have fun. Don't do anything bad okay?" Ashley says and walks up to you and gives you a hug before kissing your forhead and leaving the room, throwing a goodnight over his shoulder for Andy.
"so." Andy says, clapping his hands together in front of him.
"What do you wanna watch first?"......

A/N

Hello peoples! Thank you so much for reading and I hope that you like it! This one came out about a thousand words longer three usual 😂 please vote if you liked it and comment!
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