So this past Wednesday was our awards night and the drill team was performing a routine. So Houghton and Hancock have conjoined so we could have RO too. So Houghton had a half day so we went over to Hancock to practice and I had the routine down and later that night we went to do it and I was doing good at first and then I messed up and it spiraled from there I froze on stage and couldn't recover until we did the tosses to each other even then I messed up. I looked like I didn't practice at all. But every one who knew me knew I put my heart and soul into this, after all I did come up with the routine. Am I mad I messed up so badly? At first yes I wanted to cry, but at the end of the night I realised I shouldn't be upset. I tried. Simple as that and not a lot of people with social anxiety would. So now my goal is to be able to preform in front of people no matter how long it takes. I don't want my anxiety to control how I live my life. I also noticed self improvement from when I started. I couldnt even preform our routine in front of them without messing up. Never ever be mad at yourself for trying your best even if you don't succeed, and don't give up either!
