Friends with benefits ( a mindless behavior story)

too much to handle.

Warning: this chapter has self harm and alot of drama.

i cant believe we kissed. we shouldnt have done that but i still like Roc. i dont even know what to do about this. ughhhh fuck feelings.

2 months later

Lani: Roc!!! i moaned out of control.

Roc: you like that mami?

Lani: y-yeees. we both climaxed. Roc?

Roc: yes?

Lani: we shouldnt be doing this.

Roc: what do you mean by that.

Lani: i feel guilty about this. i started putting my clothes back on. i mean i love Prince and im being a bad girlfriend. im doing what you did and i dont like it.

Roc: you act like we havent had sex before

Lani: i know but we never should have in the first place.

Roc: Lani come on dont be like this. i love you.

Lani: if you loved me you would want me to ba happy. i walked downstairs and sat on the couch. Princeton walked in the door and i looked at him and looked down.

Prince: Kaylani we need to talk.

Lani: uhm ok? i followed him to his room and sat on his bed.

Prince: Lani i have something to tell you i waited until your favorite weather so that you would be less upset. he had tears in his eyes

Lani: ok i guess...

Prince: Kaylani i cheated.

Lani: what? i felt my heart drop.

Prince: the whole relationship i cheated. i started crying.

Lani: what? why?

Prince: i dont know.

Lani: with who?

Prince: Cheyenne...

Lani: you know what? fuck you. why dont i just fucking die already?

Prince: dont say that.

Lani: SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU BASTARD. I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU KNEW DAMN WELL HOW FUCKING BROKEN I WAS WHEN ROC CHEATED ON ME WITH THAT BITCH AND NOW YOU GO AND DO THE SAME GOD DAMN THING? FUCK YOU JACOB EMMANUEL PEREZ . i stormed out of the room and down the stairs.

Ray: sis whats wrong i heard you yelling.

Lani: I DONT WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU. i stormed out of the house slamming the door on the way out. i went home and thought about everything while the rain poured down on me. i went in my house and grabbed all the alcohol my arms could carry and i ran as fast as i could to my hiding spot in the middle of the woods. i looked at the worn down cabin and smiled. as i walked inside i smelled dust and molding wood. i love this cabin so much. i closed the door behind me and walked into the kitchen i put the alcohol in the cabinet and went into my room. it still looked the same. it was completely untouched. i looked at my pictures of Prince and Roc and i tore them down. i took down all of my posters of mb only leavong posters of Trey songz, Drake, Pierce the Veil, Jacob Latimore, Diggy, Sleeping with Sirens, Miguel, and  Chris Brown. i took one last look at my room and i left. i went into my bathroom and closed the door. i looked at my counter.

Lani: hello old friend. i missed you. i picked up the cold metal and dragged it across my skin. that feels much better. i dragged the blade across my skin going deeper with every cut. i cleaned up my arm and bandaged it up. i feel a little bit better now.