Classic Rock One Shots

Janis Joplin #1

Little Girl Blue

California,1970

I had no one to turn to any longer. She's gone...officially gone,forever. I'll never get to see her,or hear her voice in the mornings,never smell her perfume in my sheets again. I sobbed as I thought about all the things that I can never feel again. I sobbed into my hands,laying in my bed. I had my knees against my chest,and cried for hours. She's gone and there is nothing I can do to get her back. I heard my phone ring,but I ignored it. About half an hour later,while I listened to "Little girl Blue" four hundred more times I heard a knock on my front door. I ignored that too,refusing to show anyone my weakness. I don't think I can live without her. Another knock,but it seems the person got the message and let me be. I felt so alone...so empty and hollow. I wish to feel nothing,to feel numb. I had loved and lost,seen the world in her eyes, and I didn't care to see it ever again. I so badly wish she was here with me,but I know she's not coming back. She's left me here,and I'm forever changed. She changed me,made me see the world differently. She made me see how beautiful everything is. But,I don't want to see it without her. I have seen everything I wanted to see,in her. I'm ready to leave now,i'm ready to be with her. I dragged myself out of bed,and went to my bathroom. I pulled out my Oxycontin,the bottle full. I filled my hand,sixteen little white pills I had counted. I downed them,swallowing water with them. I sat on the counter,and a few minutes later,everything was heavy. The world was hovering over me,and I began to lose my grip on reality. I was pulled out of my bathroom,into a room of soft white light. I saw Janis,she was smiling at me. I was happy to be with her again. I realized we were in the room of the physic room from college. This is where we met. "Hi Taylor." Janis smiled. "Oh,hi." I smiled back. This is it,the day we met. Maybe this time,I could get it right. I could make everything okay,fix it.