Words Left Unspoken

18.You

Everything had changed .

From sweet smiles to ashes.

Our  selfies and pictures  ,
were already living in the
recycle bin .

Everything has changed.

From anime
topics to silent stares .

I heard you had a girl.

You said it was nothing.

Nothing but friendship.

But I knew it was different.

I knew it was more than friendship.

Remember when I was angry all of the sudden, and you were there?

Remember when
you were the only one
who lifted all of my bags
when I was so helpless?

Remember when you
said to me

"You're cool and understanding ."

You're talented.

You're beautiful.

Maybe those words never meant anything to you ,

How stupid I am to wait you
say

"You're all mine . "

But it was all over .

" The mutual
understanding was done."

I heard your friend say.

Was it all a tiny little act?

Was I just a part of your experiment ?

Am I only a fan of yours?

I hate to say this ,

but

am I

the only one

in love ?

You said you hated yourself for saying all of this  to me.

You said " I'm sorry for hurting you . "

I gave you a smile .

And you thought everything's gonna be alright .

In your world with your girl, you're always be alright.

In my world without you ,
I will try to be alright.

What difference does it make
if I will say :

I need you. Please don't go .

I thought we were something more.

I thought we were meant to be.

I just thought we were meant to be.

But words can't change hearts.

And hearts can't change words .

I know there was love ;

I know I assumed .

But hearts beat with
blood and rhythm.

Tears fall down with
feelings and gravity.

And so people won't
love without feeling
loved at all.

Nobody will wait a train
without a ticket.

There will be no
hearts waiting,
If there are no hearts
worth the sharing.

The fact I can get it right away.

But I can't force some hearts to stay.

But the rhythm you
played was
my heartbeat .

And the rhythm you
listened to was the melody
of someone else.

Am I so hard to be loved ?

Or am I that stupid enough ?

Is this the right things that I should think about ?

When I was the
only one who was
betrayed and unloved?

I love you .

Please stay and everything's gonna be alright .

I'll never leave you .

That's a promise I won't break.

Take my hand , and let's watch the stars go by.

But these are the only words
I want to hear from you.

Not a single word from my
list was spilt from your mouth.

And now I understand ,

Not all hearts are loyal .

Most of it are playing ;

Some are confused.

But please , listen.

Don't play someone's
love ,

when you are not
sure about yours.

Let me just say I love you .

I love you ,

Because I know, I am sure.
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