11:11

Fear Of Good-bye

Words can cut

right through your heart,

leaving you to feel

like your whole world is crashing in on you.

That a fear comes to you,

one you know that shouldn't even exist.

Still I find those words

hard to believe I ever heard them.

Keep fearing that all we have

will be gone in an instant.

You are my best friend,

one who means the world to me.

Yet I feel that this time

when we say good-bye,

much harder than the last.

Try to listen

to what you had told me.

When you said nothing would change,

that you will still be around.

It's still hard

knowing that we won't have our weekly chats.

That even now as I write,

tears come to my eyes

knowing that this will be a void in my life.

Crying,

knowing that in a few weeks things will change,

whether I want them to or not.

Unknown,

what will happen next

is what scares me the most.

Behind this smile

that you see on my face.

Is me keeping

as much as I can inside.

Just how much

my heart is breaking

knowing that a good-bye

will soon be coming.