The Sky Falls 『Kaneki Ken oneshots』

Maps

Title: Aka!neki x Depressed!Self-harm!Reader

*Contains some self harm near the ending! Please don't read if you get uncomfortable by this..! <3*

I miss the taste of the sweet life. I miss the conversations..

*FLASHBACK*

Kaneki Ken. You guys have been dating since you first met in college. You guys were always there for each other when ever something was wrong.

You were probably one of the only person Kaneki trusted in telling that he was a ghoul. Yes you were shocked; but you loved him. And you wouldn't leave him no matter what. During his 'ghoul phase', Kaneki struggled a lot into accepting his ghoul side.

You would even offer to let him bite your leg or your shoulder, but he would always reject your offer; crying, saying that he couldn't hurt you.

Then one day; your friend Touka had told you he was kidnapped. Like hell were you gonna let them take him away from you. You wanted to go along with them but.. you're just a human being. Touka kept yelling at you saying that she's not strong enough to protect you. And that she would be filled with guilt if anything happened to you, during the rescue for Ken.

Not wanting to make Touka any angrier, you agreed to wait for them to return.

Everyone else came back but.. he never did.

Every time you would ask Touka about Kaneki; she would always find a way to avoid the topic. She felt like a failure. She wasn't able to bring your man back, for he decided to leave with Aogiri without telling you anything. This made you furious, and very upset.

I'm searching for a song tonight. I'm changing all of the stations..

'Where the hell is he..? What THE HELL happened during their rescue..?' you thought as you sat by your bedroom window. You let out a sigh as you stared at the lovely night lights of Tokyo.

All of sudden you saw something jump onto your roof. You let out a gasp and backed away from the window. Footsteps where heard from the top. As you kept backing away, you saw a figure climbing into a window.

With fear, you reached out your hand and grabbed the nearest item; a pair of safety scissors.

The figure climbed in and you squinted your eyes trying to get a view of it, but your lights were dim so it was impossible to see the figure's face.

"GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!" you shouted as you raised your hand, with the scissors. Within a second, the figure grabbed the scissors and dropped them. It then immediately grabbed you by the waist and pulled you towards it's chest, making you squeak a bit.

You've felt this warm embrace somewhere..

You look up and saw a pair of familiar grey eyes. You let out a gasp and pulled the figure's hoodie down. "Kaneki..?" you whispered softly. You were now at the edge of tears.

He looked different now. His hair was longer and was snowy white. And his eyes.. they were no longer full of happiness, but pain. His smile was also gone. You noticed that he looked a little paler. His face was full of small cuts and bruises.

You wanted to say something but you didn't even know where to start.

Silence filled the room.

You raised your hand and ran your fingers through his hair. You smiled slightly as you heard him sigh for a moment. All of a sudden, he placed his forehead onto your shoulder and began breaking down.

"I-I'm so sorry (y/n)..! I didn't meant to l-leave you...*sniffles* I just wanted to get fucking s-stronger and protect YOU. I don't want you to ever get hurt because of m-me.. I'm a damn monster.. I'm dangerous (y/n)..!" he cried out.