Triangular love [Niam]

Chapter 13 - Liam

[This is an intense chapter, get ready. Bring some tichues! :3]

I lift my head slowly and look at the alarm clock next to the bed. It is 3 in the afternoon. I turn around and I hear Niall groan before I see his face. I must have been really tired because I don’t remember going to bed with Niall. I won’t complain though.

“Hey beautiful.” I say and Niall opens his bright blue eyes and flashes me a tired grin.

“Hey babe.” He adds, still smiling.

I put my face near his chest and put my leg on top of his and he puts his own on top of mine. He is warm and really comfortable; I could fall asleep on him again.  As I wrap an arm around the Irish boy I hear snoring. That bastard fell asleep again. And the next thing you know I fall in a deep sleep aswell.

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This time I wake up to Niall staring at me, his eyes looking at my face in every detail and slowly bringing his gaze to my shirtless body. The thing is I don’t remember taking my shirt off either.

“Not fair, why don’t you have your shirt off?” I say as Niall widens his eyes. “Maybe it’s because I want you to take it off for me.” It’s my turn to have my eyes widen as I sit down on the bed, I bring my face three centimeters away from his. I lock my eyes with his making sure to brush my lips with his and he groans.  I get shivers down my spine as I lean in closer and kiss him gently pulling away seconds later. I look back into his eyes and they are full of envy. It makes me happy that he desires me, I was always scared to tell my feelings to the guys I liked because I didn’t want them to reject me.

He couldn’t take the wait, I could tell. He started to kiss me quickly but gently. It was a sweet but needy kiss. I grabbed his hair and he put his hands around the elastic on my boxers.  I could feel my boner getting bigger and his as well, he was sitting on me. The kiss got deeper and deeper; we had to stop to catch our breath. “I love you.” He whispered as he was panting. I couldn’t get the courage to tell him I love you back so I mumbled a “thank you.” His eyes who were light and sparkling got darker and cold. I don’t know why I didn’t say I love you. It’s maybe the fact that everything is going too fast? Maybe I am not ready?

Niall slowly gets off of the bed, puts some pants on and leaves the room without saying any word. “Niall…” I mutter as I pull my hands to my face. I feel like such an arsehole but was I going to say it back if I didn’t mean it? I really wanted to make sure I did. The thing is I really thought I loved him. I mean, I am 100% sure I like him but do I love him?

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An hour later I get out of bed and put some clothes on. I walk to the kitchen almost apprehending what will happen next but there is no sign of Niall. My heart sinks as I was hoping to see him and apologize.

“Hey Liam, you looked bummed.” I hear Louis say almost as a question.

He is sitting alone at the buffet with a bowl of cereal looking through his twitter feed.

I don’t answer him and change the subject. “Any drama on twitter?”  He lifts his shoulders “only a picture of you and Liam on a date.” My eyes widen, he doesn’t seem to care about it. I always thought the boys knew but didn’t approve. “You don’t care if Ni’ and I are –uhm- dating, right?” I ask and Louis answers immediately almost hurt “Of course not, why would we care? Plus you make a cute couple.” He winks and I can’t help but laugh.

“So, where are the others?” I ask.

He avoids my question and asks me another one “Is anything going on with you and Niall? I saw him leave the hotel room in tears.” His features get more serious meaning he is done kidding around and wants to be serious. I get this knot in my stomach, it wasn't my intention to hurt Niall. Things were just going too fast. “Well… uhm…” I’m not sure if I really want to say what happened to Louis. But I mean, he is my best friend so I might as well. “He told me he loved me and I answered thanks…”

He bites his lips trying not to laugh and I get angry suddenly. I get up; throw the chair on the other side of the kitchen and leave. I thought I could trust him, I thought he was going to be serious.

I need to get some air; I grab my coat and hop in the car. I drive to the nearest café, open the door and sit down near a window. I don’t even care if fans find out where I am, I just want to zone out and look outside and it’s not today that everyone will start bothering me.

“Liam, I’m sorry.” I hear from behind. I turn around and see Louis. “You followed me?” I state more than I ask with an irritated voice.  “I really wanted to apologize, I didn’t mean to laugh it’s just that it made me think of myself when I was going out with this girl and the same thing happened.” He takes a deep breath. “I’m sure you didn’t say ‘I love you’ because you don’t like him, it’s just that you are not ready to say it because when you say it, it makes it more official and maybe you are scared to get things official just now.”

Maybe he is right; maybe I’m just not ready yet. I’m just going to have to explain that to Niall, if he decides to talk to me again. If I were him I wouldn’t talk to me either.

“Thanks Lou’.” I say honestly and he smiles. He plops down on the seat in front of me. “You two are my OTP and I’m sure the fans would agree.” He says with a grin.

“I agree.” A voice behind me says and Louis’ face filled with anger and terror. As I turn around I understand why he feels like that. You would have never guessed but Annabelle, wearing the Café’s apron is standing there looking at us as if she didn’t hurt us before.

Things happen quickly, I get up and grab Annabelle by the arms and push her against the nearest wall. “HOW DARE YOU STAY NEAR US AND FOLLOW US EVERYWHERE AFTER WHAT YOU DID. I’M SURE YOU TOOK THE PICTURE OF US YESTERDAY. WE WERENT READY TO BE SEEN PUBLICLY OKAY AND BECAUSE OF YOU ALL OF THIS IS RUINED. I BLOODY WISH YOU DIDN’T EXIST.” I let go of her arms and run away. I didn’t want her to see the tears in my eyes from the anger and the regret of telling her I wish she didn’t exist. I’m the one who doesn’t deserve to exist.  

“Liam! I never took any fucking picture of you guys okay!” She screams and sobs at the same time. I hear Louis trying to comfort her and I get angry at him for helping someone who made Niall’s life hell.

I’m walking in the streets with tears blurring my vision, not knowing where I’m going. Everyone is looking at me but no one seems to recognize me. I stop, breathing heavily and punch the building next to me gently because I lost all my strength. I feel myself drop down slowly on the ground, I pull my back against the cold building I punched and put my face into my legs crying like a five year old. I’m a grown boy crying my heart out in front of everyone.

I feel a hand on my shaking shoulders and lift my head trying to see the face in front of me because I got tears blocking my view. I wipe the tears abruptly and see Niall’s face looking at me with worry but also sadness and I start crying again because I hurt everyone I meet.

“I love you too Ni’.” I say in between sobs, my shoulders shacking more than ever. 

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