At Last---A Jassian Fanfiction

Chapter 4

Cassian and I walk down the hall. My fists are clenched to my sides as we make our way to the main room where we will have a private meeting with Mon Mothma and General Draven.

I dare them to tell us about how we "broke the rules" and "challenged their authority". I will fucking destroy them if they do. Calm down, Jyn. I take a deep breath. You don't even know what they're gonna say.

"Jyn?" Cassian noticed my heated frame.

"I'm okay.", I reply with an odd calmness.

We arrive at the door and wait for it to open. We walk into the dimly lit room with a blue tint.

I remember this room all too well. The room were I first met Cassian. Where I first encountered the Rebellion. But now, I walk in with a new attitude toward the rebels and their cause. And a different attitude toward Cassian. Very different.

We stand at one side of a round table. Mothma and Draven appear at the other side.

"Welcome, Jyn...Cassian.", she nods toward us both.

We simply give an acknowledging stare. I'm glad I have Cassian at my side. I need him in this moment.

This moment defines my future.

"I'm sure you have visited the memorial for those who fell during the unofficial battle of Scarif.", says Mothma.

"Yes.", we reply in unison.

Draven seems irritated. He wants to speak, I can tell.

"What you two did, what transpired at Scarif, was against the strict orders we gave you. Because of you, the rebellion lost many valuable lives-", said Draven.

"Don't bring Cassian into this. I was the one that planned for Scarif and if it weren't for us, the rebellion wouldn't have the plans so don't you co-", I interrupt before the interruption was reciprocated.

"Jyn...There is more to be said....Because of you...all of you who participated in the battle of Scarif, the Rebellion was able to destroy the Death Star.", Mothma says.

Cassian and I share an astonished glance. This is not what I expected.

"Jyn. Cassian. We would like to award you with medals of honor for yourselves and all those who lost their lives at Scarif.", she proposed.

I had tears in my eyes. We are being recognized for our struggle. After all of this fucking pain, we all get the recognition we deserve as Han Solo, Luke Skywalker, and Leia Organa did.

I am unable to speak. Not a word.

"Thank you, Mon Mothma...General Draven.", Cassian responded for both of us.

"Let me give you the details of the ceremony-", she says.

"Mothma, well, before I forget. Can you please include K2 in this ceremony. I know he doesn't have emotions but...without him, Cassian and I wouldn't be alive."

"Of course."

We still have a place in this cause. A very important place.
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I wake up after a bad dream with a gasp. My shirt is damp from sweat. Oh, no. Not now. Please, not now.

Suddenly, I remember the dream.

We were still on Scarif and Lord Darth Vader showed up. He beheaded Cassian with his light saber right in front of my eyes.

I am gasping for air.

Vader then stuck his saber through K2. His circuits going haywire.

My PTSD is triggered yet again for the I-don't-know-what-number time in a row.

Stop it, Jyn!

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I lie in bed. Shaking. The flash-backs are killing me.

Thank the Force it is finally over.

Cassian was on my mind the whole time.

He is the reason it's over.
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After the flash-back, I could not fall asleep. It is now 5:00 am and I still cannot sleep.

I get my lazy ass up and shuffle into the bathroom. I splash the cold, crisp water on my face. Now that I'm up, I might as well make my self look somewhat like a human.

My mind drifts to the ceremony as I take a refreshing morning shower.

The ceremony is tomorrow. Mon Mothma said we can make a statement.

I have to plan out what to say. Important people will be there and they need to know about the underdog heroes. The ones who lost their lives for a cause.

I need to honor Bodhi, Chirrut, Baze, and all the others who stood beside me, even though they didn't know me. Those are true heroes.
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Author's Note:

That photo, though. Don't they look so badass?? #squadgoals

Jyn's speech is gonna be BOMB. Cassian is gonna say some cute shit too, being the little smol space bean he is. Get ready for that shit.