99 days gone (merome)

Day twenty eight

-day twenty eight-

As soon as I woke up today I ran to my room and cried. It hurt biggums, my eyes, my throat, my head, my heart. everything. I miss you so much. as soon as I pulled myself together I climbed out of bed and went on a rampage. no one was home witch was a good thing I guess. I stomped into the kitchen an threw all the dishes on the floor breaking most of them, I grabbed my laptop and threw it out the front door, I kicked a hole through the tv, and I punched the window. I had scrapeds and blood on my knuckles and legs. I stomped into the kitchen ignoring the pain and grabbed the steak knife and held the tip to my heart, and muttered "im coming biggums" . but before I could plunge the knife into my heart Adam busted in. I dropped the knife and fell to my knees and cried. he dropped the groceries and ran to me scooping me up into his arms, and cried with me. after we finished crying we got up and he stared cleaning up and I tried to help but he didn't let me. he made me go sit with jason for he fears what would happen if I was alone. in sorry biggums I failed you if only I didn't hesitate we would be together finally. I sat with jason and cried, he cried with me while hugging me and trying to calm me. I accidentally fell asleep in his arms I'm sorry biggums I didn't mean to I just needed someone, but I just wish those were you arms. I love you biggums.