99 days gone (merome)

Day thirty one

-day thirty one-

I woke up in the hospital today. I scream as soon as I wake up, begging them to kill me. I want to be with you biggum I want to see your warming smile again. I miss you biggums I miss you so bad it hurts. I don't want to live with this pain any more I have to die. I jump up off the bed and try to grab the hospital tools. If they don't kill me I will kill myself! Doctors are pushing me back and trying to strap me to a table, but I keep fighting. I lost the fight biggums I'm sorry. I got shoved onto the table and I couldn't get up. I tried biggums but I failed you Agian. I'm sorry. They gave me calming pills and I calm down but not by choice. I hear them say my name from outside of the room and I hear somthing about a mental hospital and Adams voice denying it. Adams trying to save me from a mental hospital!! but I don't think his please are working! this is bad news bears biggums! I whimper at the thought. if I'm in a mental hospital I can't be with you for a long time. I'm sorry biggums. I start to doze off because of the medicine. don't worry biggums they can't keep us apart forever.