Fake Love. | Kim Taehyung

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weaker, paler, and thinner than usual. Not that I mind though. I mean who does?

I go to school alone, I go home alone, and I stay alone. Everyday I'm alone. V on the other side, is always with Skye Skye Skye. He must be enjoying life to the fullest while I'm here wasting it.

But he doesn't know.

He still thinks I'm the bubbly girl he liked back then, the one who cooks and cares for him at home. The same one who waits and worries when he's not at home but in the end he's safe and having fun. The one who cuts and thinks of her insecurities but hides it.

Yeah I'm the same girl.

Somehow, everyday I manage to trick everyone and tell them I'm fine. Even Chanyeol doesn't know. Maybe I should be nominated for the best actress because my job is actually the hardest thing to do.

Acting as if everything is fine and that I'm enjoying life. When in reality, I'm not. Deep down I just want to break down and cry and tell everybody. I wanted to just slap V and cry in front of him.

But I'm weak.

I can't do that.

Even if I wanted to, I can't.

Today was a school day. I used to dread going to school but now I wished it would be everyday and actually longer.

At least there I can do something productive in my life other than sitting down, cooking and waiting for someone who'll not come home and in the end the food gets wasted.

I wake up with my aching back and went to the guest bathroom downstairs. I showered and changed into my school uniform.

Today...

I don't feel like cooking for him.

Actually most days I don't. I don't know why I do it everyday when he doesn't really come home and eat it. Whats the point?

I grab my own bowl and poured some cereal and milk. I began eating peacefully.

I miss our old routines. Where V says his cute greetings every morning, sometimes he evens pecks my nose. He also enjoys my cooking. Those were the days..

Now he doesn't even give a shit.

V came down and looked at the table.

"Oh. Where's the food? " he says rubbing his eyes.

"You get it yourself. " I say and continue eating my cereal.

"Jeez what's with the attitude. Okay fine I will get it myself then" he scoffs and grabs another bowl and eats cereal also.

I hate him.

But I love him as well.

As he eats, he looks at his phone and starts laughing. I peeked a little and it seemed like he was chatting with the group. I wasn't even on the groupchat.

I sigh and finished my cereal as soon as I could. V looked up and saw me rushing.

"Going somewhere? " he says and looks back at his phone. Do you even need to know? Not like you'll care anyways.

"Yeah. To school." I finished up and grabbed my bag. 

I looked back at him once more to see if he even noticed. Oh. Like usual he didn't.

I sighed and went out the door.

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I reached school and Channie started skipping towards me. He's the only one who ever approaches me nowadays.