Dantana Drabbles

Distant

Dani

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It's been 10 months , 3 weeks and about 6 days. That's how long me and Santana have been going out. But it's been a week and 2 days that Santana has been very distant.

She won't touch me, she doesn't kiss me anymore. Don't even get me .started on the sex. It's like our whole love life just shut down. Does she even love me anymore ?

I'm soon brought out of my deep thoughts by Rachel.

"Hey Dan, are you okay ? You seem very out of it."

"Um , yeah I guess." I look back at the tv.

"You don't seem to sure. Dani , what's really going on." She gives me a pleading look.

"Its just San."

"What about Santana ?"

"She's been distant Rachel. She doesn't touch me , we don't even have sex anymore ! I mean Santana usually wants sex 4 times a week !" I say raising my voice a little bit.

"You guys would have sex 4 times a week?"

"Seriously Rachel !" I say a little bit more sad.

"Okay, sorry. But what are you technically assuming, that's she's cheating on you ?"

"To be honest .... yeah. I mean , why else would she be like that. we gone out basically 11 months and known each other for 6 before that. Not once has she ever been like this. Even if we fought."

The door opened before Rachel got to reply. It was Santana and Kurt with some groceries.

"Hey Dani can you come help me." Kurt asked. I went off to the kitchen to help put away boxes of hamburger helper. Santana still hasn't said or even looked at me yet.

"Hey babe." I say looking up to San.

"Oh, hey Dani." She says casually. The fuck ? Like of were friends and shit.

"You weren't there when I woke up this morning. I missed you." I hug her from behind.

"Look Dani, I'm busy we'll talk later." she pulls out of my embrace. Seriously , what is this girls problem.

"No Santana. I've been getting really tired of your shit lately!" I didn't mean to raise my voice. It just happened. From the corner of my eye I can see Rach and Kurt walk into another room.

"Tired of my shit. Dani , what are you talking about." she doesn't look at me. She just continues putting away the food. She's so calm, how is she so calm when I just yelled at her?

"Can you at least look at me when I talk to you ?" Santana sighs and finally turns around, she looks at me with a bored face and hands on her hips.

"What Danielle?"

"Danielle? San , what is going on with you ?"

"Going on with me? Nothing is going on with me. If you excuse me I have shit to do." She goes back to put more boxes away.

I walk up to her and pull the box out of her hand. "what the hell dani!?" She says.

"What the fuck is your problem ! You've been ignoring me basically for 2 weeks Santana! You don't touch me , you barley look at me, you never kiss me anymore but when I try to kiss you you always turn your head so I get your cheek. You act like we're just friends Santana! Like if our fucking relationship doesn't mean shit to you anymore ! You're never home , and when you come back it's super late." All this came out of no where, I just laid out all my feelings to her and she still doesn't say anything. "You know what San, if there's ... if there's s-someone else, just tell me right now. So I can get my shit and leave." I say more softly this time.

"All you do is bitch Dani ! Maybe you should just get your shit and go."

"Wow, okay." I sighed.

I walked into Santana's room, grabbed a duffle bag from under the bed and started throwing all my clothes and other things into there. I hear Santana walk into the room, I don't bother even looking at her.

"Danielle , what the hell are you doing ?" Santana said softly.

"I'm doing what you said, I'm taking my shit and leaving."

"Dani please , will you stop." Santana grabs my arm.

I finally look up to her, but she's blurry from all my tears. "What Santana ! W-what, you're gonna tell me to s-stop. To say you're s-sorry ? Don't leave baby I-I love you. Fuck no Santana , it's been the same bullshit for the past 10 days !" I struggled saying through sobs.

"You know I don't mean it Dani !"

"Well maybe this time San I'm being for reals, I'm not giving you what you want obviously , so I'm leaving."

"Well fuck me for going through such a hard time right now okay ! I'm sorry okay !"

"Then why won't you talk to me Santana ! I've been trying for basically a week and a half ! It's too late for your damn sorry's."

I really don't want to leave her , but I feel like I have no other choice. She's been very cold hearted , and putting back up a wall like she used to before we went out. I'm not going to try and talk to her , I've tried so many times this past 2 weeks and she's just been bitchy.

*flash back*

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"Why won't you just talk to me San, you've been distant lately and it makes feel like I did something wrong." I follow Santana into the kitchen.

"You didn't do anything." she says as she takes out a water from the fridge.

"Then what it is baby ? Please I want to talk." I try pleading with her.

"Dani, I'm tired of talking okay. And I'm tired of you bitching at me all the time about it ! If you don't like it then leave." She turns around and puts her water back into the fridge.

If she wants me to leave , then fine. I turn and walk into our room. I start getting my stuff together. "You're seriously leaving ?" I turn and see San.

"You just told me to."

"Look I'm sorry okay, just please stay." she comes and wraps her arms around me from behind. I turn in her embrace and look up to her.

"Fine." Santana bends down and kisses me deeply.

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As I'm walking to the door I feel San grab me by the hand.

"You're leaving me?"

"I'm not leaving you San , I'm giving you space because that's obviously what you need. I-I'm sick and tired of you blocking me out and us fighting over your stupidity. You're making me feel like I'm doing something wrong, and then me having to think of what it is. I don't know what you want anymore Santana , and to be honest I do feel like you are keeping something from me. So I'm giving you one last chance to tell me what it is before I walk out that door."

Nothing , I got nothing. I wait a couple more seconds ... 5..4 , she's just standing there but I'm not taking this shit anymore .. 3..2..1.

"Call me when you stop acting like a selfish bitch and figure your shit out."

Santana

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I can't tell her, it'll hurt her or it might not , I don't know. Although everything she just said is true. I've been blocking her out. But not intentionally. Now she feels like it's all her fault like if she did something wrong. She didn't. And I don't know why I've been bitchy to her. I just don't like the fact that I might loose her. I guess I'm just trying to distant myself so I don't get hurt, I don't want it get hurt by hurting her. That will kill me. I love her to death.

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