rules of attraction ⇒ zack taylor

ch : 5

Lana

September 17, 2017 • Sunday // 4:21 PM

I had the picnic cloth wrapped around me like a burrito to keep myself warm. My hair was still soaking wet and was wearing my shirt but not my pants. 

I was wrapped up anyway.

Zack, on the other hand, had his pants on but not his shirt. He was sitting just beside me, also waiting for the rain stop.

We decided to get out of the water right after what happened... we haven't spoken a word to each other since then.

I wasn't saying anything not because I didn't enjoy the kiss... I just didn't know what to do or say.

This kiss is so overdue... That's what kept echoing in my head while it was going on.

At that moment, I realized I never really expected any of this to happen. When I moved to Angel Grove, I already knew things were going to be a whole lot different. I wasn't going to be my old self anymore. I promised myself I was never going to let anyone into my life anymore... I was so afraid of being left alone because the only thing worse than having my family ripped away from me is having it happen all over again.

But at that moment, I also realized... I didn't get to follow my rules of attraction. I disregarded everything I knew and felt from the past and replaced them with the new memories I've made. Every single painstaking thought was overpowered by everything I was thinking of at that moment. 

So many emotions were clouding up my mind, but I knew I was happy.

Really happy.

I was finally more happy than I ever was before... he made these past few days feel like decades.

I was feeling the tingling sensation in my stomach and in my chest again, and this time... I knew exactly why I felt those goddamn butterflies. 

I felt that way because it was him.

I've never felt this way about anyone before and now, I know why.

I Iiked him more than I thought I did.

It didn't take me long to realize I was already falling for his ways.

I was falling for the way he makes me feel so vulnerable whenever he's around, I was falling for the way his eyes light up when he sees me, I was falling for the way he makes me feel safe and understood, I was falling for the way he's so effortlessly handsome, I was falling for the way he makes me swoon over him without even trying...

I was falling for the way he's himself.

I was falling for him, dammit.—I was falling for him and I have no other way to conceal it any longer...

But I can't just say that to his face. 

I don't even know how to talk about what happened without sounding incredibly awkward.

I need Zack to say something first.

I look to him but he was as silent as me.

Ugh. Just say something.

Silence.

Please. Just speak up...

Nothing.

Zack!

"Hey...?"

Thank you.

"Yeah...?"