"Stop!" He pulled at my clothes and tried to kiss me again and again but I didn't want to feel his lips on my skin, they burned.
"You're mine, I can touch you whenever I want." This was a regular thing, the grip on my wrist tightened and I halfway gave into forceful sloppy kisses and just let his hands roam wherever. I didn't care anymore, he had taken all of my care away. But I was too afraid to leave. Too scared of what would happen.
"Aye, the lass said don't. So, you don't." Finn turned the corner in time to see it all happen. He leaned against the wall in his leather jacket, the look of Finn...that...that made me feel something.
Finn is my best friend in the whole entire world, the only human being that makes living worth it anymore. Sitting around, watching movies, talking about nothing at all. Everything melted with Finn. But he wont let that happened, I haven't spent one on one time with Finn in weeks. "Is that so? Well she's mine, but thanks for the input." He shoved his tongue down my throat and kissed me way too hard. Finn pulled him up by the collar of his shirt and shoved him against the wall.
"I swear to god, touch her one more time and see what happens. I will proudly make you the next member of the Finn Bálor kicked my ass club." He dropped him back on the floor and turned to walk away. He grabbed me, striking me across the face. Finn heard the smack and stopped dead in his tracks.
"Finn, go." I whispered while wiping the blood from my lip. Finn didnt say anything back. In no time at all, he was on his back and Finn just kept hitting. "Finn, c'mon, Finn stop." I pulled him off the best I could. I slipped and Finn fell almost on top of me.
"You go home. You get your things. You come back to my apartment and you never ever see this piece of shit again. Are you okay with that?" His deep beautiful eyes looked deep into mine.
"Yeah....yeah, Finn...that sounds perfect. Okay?" I looked down at him. He rolled over and tried to stop the blood spewing from his nose. "I'm not sorry, and this is the end. No more hurting me, no more anything. Okay? Its done." Finn grabbed my hand and pulled me down the hall.
As soon as he knew we were out of earshot and out of sight, he pulled me close to his chest and I broke. I cried and cried and cried. "Shhhh, c'mon. Youre okay. Let's go get your things and get you to bed? Okay?" He held my face in his hands, kissing my forehead softly.
"I'm so scared." I whispered and sobbed even harder.
"I will protect you. I will always protect you. Because protecting you is what I was made to do." He held me close to him until my breathing returned to normal.
"Finn..." I just pressed him harder to me, breathing in his scent and feeling the softness of his shirt, the cool of his jacket.
We took only what I would need for a week or so. And Finn watched my back closely the whole time. As soon as we pulled in the drive, Finn took my hand and said "grab no boxes, forget everything else and go take a shower. You deserve that much. Okay? Go take a shower and I'll bring you some clothes and everything. Go." He kissed my forehead and sent me on my way. I looked behind me once I reached the door and saw Finn grabbing bags and boxes. "Go lass, I mean it." He nodded towards the door and I stepped inside.
As I roamed the familar halls, my fingertips dragging across the bumpy drywall, I felt safe and at home. Like something was finally going right after all this time of suffering. I grabbed a towel from the closet and went down the hall to the big bathroom. I turned on the shower and let steam fill the room. When I stepped under the water, all the worries of the day, everything that had happened and everything I had been through, it didn't matter. I was with Finn, I was safe, I would be happy. I stepped out of the shower, wrapped my hair up in a towel and wrapped the bigger around my body. As soon as I did, the door opened. "Hey, oh, hey. I'm sorry." I laughed at how flustered Finn was. The towel from my hair fell onto the floor and Finn looked me up and down over and over again.
"So, did you barge in for a reason or?" I laughed.
"I brought you clothes and I forgot how pretty your eyes were without makeup...I'm sorry." I had never seen Finn look at me this way.
"Thank you." I stood on my toes to kiss his cheek and take the clothes from his hand.
"I'm gonna go make dinner now.." He had a silly little smile across his lips.
"Okay." I smiled and shut the door behind him. I didnt want to just let myself fall into these feelings for Finn but I had been denying them for a long, long time. I slipped into the shorts he had brought me and then noticed this was not my t-shirt, this was his. I couldn't help but to smile and press it to my nose before I threw it on. The smell of Finn always calmed me down. It was simple, fabric softener and deodorant but there was something different to it. He always smelled a little like Ireland.
I combed my hair and decided to let it fall naturally. I was so happy this is how tonight is going. I walked back down the hall and into the kitchen. Finn was making French fries and burgers.
"Do you know how long its been since I've had a devitt burger?" I squealed.
"Too long." He handed me a plate stacked with fries and the most delicious looking burger I had ever seen. "Go sit in the living room, I'll be there in just a minute." I took my plate and sat cross legged on the black sofa. Finn came and sat next to me and we watched Catfish for hours.
"Here, let me take them back to the kitchen." I took his plate and started cleaning everything up. I hummed softly to myself as I did the dishes. Once I was done, I turned to run almost straight into Finn. He looked at me intensely, biting the corner of his lip. "What is it?" I put my hair behind my ear.
"Don't get mad?" He titled his head just a little and I found myself getting lost in his big beautiful eyes.
"Never, Finn."
"Good." He crashed his lips into mine, picking me up and setting me on the corner before pinning my hands against the cabinets and holding them there. His kisses trailed down my neck and back up again. "I love you and you needed to know that. I should have told you before, I should have protected you. I'm sorry I didn't save you like I was supposed to princess...." He pressed his head against my neck amd held me close to his body.
"Baby, baby. Baby. Don't be sorry. You thought I was happy. I love you, Fergal. And I mean it. Never let me go." I wrapped my legs around him amd he kissed me slowly before carrying me like a princess to his king sized bed. He set me down gently, kissing my forehead before going to turn out the lights. He crawled back into bed with me and I traced over his muscles with my fingertips.
"I love you. Every night can be this way if that's what you want?"
"I would love to be yours every single day."
"You already are, love."
"I can stay with you?"
"Of course, baby girl. I'll protect you. Okay?"
"I love you, Finn."
"I love you too angel."
