I have to find him, I have to get to him. I have to make sure he's okay. I fought through crowds of people, past friends.
"Marie, cmon now." AJ caught me by the waist and held me back.
"Not now. I've got to see him..." I wiggled free and ran down the hall. "Joe!" I ran to him.
"Swear to god I turn around and see another camera, I'll break it." he turned but it was like he didn't even see me.
"Joe...baby...it's me.." I waited for his eyes to soften like they normally did but not this time.
"Get outta here." he dismissed me.
"No, Joe. I'm your girlfriend. I'm not just gunna leave."
"I said go, damn it." he yelled, punching the wall beside me. "Just stay home too. You hold me back, I don't need you. Go. Now. Its over." his words cut like knives but I had to hold my ground.
"Look me in the eye, look at me and tell me you dont love me."
He pinned me against the wall with his other hand..I was scared, I didn't feel safe with him anymore. "I don't love you." he hissed and I felt my heart break. Crumpled in the floor. A million pieces, shattered. I sat there and cried for hours. Charlie eventually came to take me home.
"C'mon pretty girl, none of this." she picked me up and I sobbed on her chest. "Let's go home, mar." she pulled me down the hall. I sat with my knees curled to my chest in the car and walked into my apartment without saying goodbye.
I don't know how long I laid there, how many days, maybe a week. But eventually Charlie came to check on me. "Hey hun?" she knocked on the bedroom door even tho it was open. I didn't say anything, just laid there. "Everyone at work is asking about you. I just wanted to make sure you're okay..." I rolled over, completely ignored her. "C'mon marie. Up and at em." she walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower. "Yanno, they're doing takeovers really close together. Joe gets his rematch next week and its a cage match." my heart broke at the sound of his name. "He hasn't been too happy either here lately, he's not even angry. I think he's sad. To the shower." I reluctantly followed and obeyed Charlie's ridiculous commands. When the hot water hit my back, I can't lie. It felt good but it made me think. Is Joe okay? Does he miss me? I sat and thought about what a teddy bear Joe could be. How he would cuddle me when it was cold and hold my hand everywhere we went, play fights were a must and he just...he made me happy. I didn't understand how I didn't make him happy, let alone how he didn't love me. I rinsed my hair and stepped out of the shower. "Here." Charlie handed me a pair of jeans & a purple top, which I slipped into. I stopped her at heels.
"No." I almost laughed and grabbed my grey converse.
"Fine, fine." she laughed and I flipped my hair, fluffing it from the bottom.
"Lets go to work." I forced a smile and we walked out into the world. It made sense the sun was shining, the world was trying to tell me I was going to be okay. But deep down, I felt it. Without Joe, my world was nothing.
I was welcomed back With a chorus of "Marie!"s and "I'm glad you're back." and I felt loved and appreciated, until I saw him. And then I remembered the way he had looked at me. The way he told me he never loved me. I wanted to cry, but instead I flipped my hair and walked away.
"Marie." he called out to me but I kept walking. I made it to the green screen charls and I were to shoot the promo on.
"Good morning WWE network. We're live here, just hours away from the nxt championship match..." I did it all, professional and with a smile.
He stood and watched, like he would have if we were still together.
"Good luck tonight. I'd love to be there." I hissed and walked away.
"Marie." he called, I shot up my middle finger and kept walking. The second I hit my dressing room, I broke. I missed him so much. I stayed back there until I knew it was time for his match. I sat on a couch in the common area, perched on the back. As the match went on I found myself still routing for him, cussing under my breath every time Nakamura caught hold of him. Finally, Joe came out on top. My king stood on top his mountain once again, except this time...I wasn't the queen next to him. He stood alone on his mountain, the way he wanted.
I stood and went to leave. I couldn't stay and watch his parade that was coming. He would come back boosting. Everyone started clapping and shaking hands when he came backstage. But he didn't look happy, not as happy as he should be. He said "thanks man." and "hell yeah" but his mind was somewhere else.
"Can I talk to you?" he said real soft to me. That was my joe, his voice. That was my man.
"Uh..yeah." I walked over to the corner and he met me there.
"It don't feel right."
"What doesn't, Joe?"
"I lied to you the other night.."
"Which part?"
"I do love you."
"Funny story." I scoffed.
"I do, with my whole entire heart."
"Then how could you look at me and say..." I started crying.
"Hey, hey, hey. No no no. I was mad as hell and you know how my temper gets." he craddled my face in his hands.
"I thought you were done.."
"No, I'm gunna be around for a long long time. And I'll be better I promise. Jts lonely at the top of the mountain, get up here with me." he laughed and kissed me real slow.
"I love you."
"God, I love you."
