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He Finds Out You Cut-(Eddie Lacy)-For Maddie

Cherophobia-fear of gaiety, happiness, joyfulness or rejoicing. The origin of the word chero is Greek (meaning to rejoice; gaiety or happiness) and phobia is Greek (meaning fear).

Everyday was the same. You would push yourself to get up in the morning. Some days you would hope things would be different so you could be like everyone else you see.

So you could be happy.

After a few times of trying to kick your depression, you gave up all hope was lost. It seemed like no one could help you, because no one would understand. Your cherophobia always got the best of you, it was useless to even try anymore, with the fear that nothing would change, and that you would only end up digging yourself deeper into depression.

The cuts on your wrist proved that.

...

"Maddie! Come on they're showing my highlights on tv!" Eddie yelled from the living room. "Alright I'll be there in a sec!" you yelled back. You opened the bottom drawer and pulled out a razor from beneath your make-up bag. You gripped it tightly, sliding the cool edge over your delicate skin, re-opening wounds already there. Blood dripped from the razor, and created a pool of blood on your arm. It dripped over into the skin.

You felt nothing.

It never hurt anymore.

"Maddie? Babe? What's taking you so long?" You quickly ran water over your wrist as you heard his footsteps in the hallway, no evidence could be left behind. The door opened and you hid your arms behind, not bothering turning the water off. Eddie glanced at the running water, turning it off, then back to you. "Maddie? What's going on?" he questioned. "N-nothing." You tried to go around him, but he blocked the way. "What are you hiding behind your back then?" Eddie went to look behind you, but you leaned back away. "It's nothing." "Don't lie to me. What is it?" Your lip trembled as you hesitantly showed him your cut up arms. His jaw hit that floor in surprise; unshed tears made his eyes red and glossy.

He spoke, his voice barely reaching a decimal. "Why are you doing this to yourself?" "Because I hate myself" you replied, "You do too, I know you don't love me, just stop telling me that lies. I can't take it anymore!" you cried. Your head was spinning, your emotions were everywhere. "I'm fat, I'm ugly...I'm just a waste of space*..just leave me already I don't deserve you."

His voice cracked as he began to speak. "Tell me what I need to do so you can stop this, please Maddie.." he begged. You stared at the floor, a tear falling from your eye. "I have never loved a person so much like I do you, I could never hate you..I love you more than I love myself.." You finally broke down, sobbing loudly. Eddie pulled you into his chest. "You are the most beautiful person on this planet..don't let anyone tell you any different. I love you more than you can ever know." Your breathing quieted down.

For once your heart felt a tinge of happiness.

You were happy to have him.

"We'll get through this together, I promise" he said, kissing your forehead and stroking your hair.

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