Regrets (H20Vanoss) DISCONTINUED

Chapter 25 - Once Again

Quick A/N, the last chapter was the last of my pre-written chapters. So now that its summer i have found motivation to continue on. Updates will be random without a set schedule. It is still my goal to continue this book, and hopefully complete it. Anyway, enough ramble

Enjoy~

Evan POV

2 days before

My mental breakdown was over, now I just feel empty and alone.
Even if I wanted to I couldn't bring myself to cry anymore. In all honesty I don't know how to feel right now, or even if I could, what to feel.

I rubbed my hands over my knuckles subconsciously. The phantom pain of glass pinching into my skin stayed, even though it's been about 5 hours since I broke the mirrors.

The bleeding had stopped and the blood dried on my hands and shirt.
The room was so dark that closing my eyes wouldn't make a difference.

So there I sat, criss-crossed with blood dried on my hands and my face stained with dried tears and expressionless.

I remember being like this back at Marks. This was a regular position for me, up until the start of the second year where I just didn't care anymore. But at least then I had an excuse for my actions. I have no idea what led me to this point. I'm crying over a guy who I bullied to no end, who's supposed to be dead.

But I miss him so much, I want to see his ocean blue eyes. I want to feel his arms around me and see emotion in him. But mostly, I want to know him. I want to know why he can't handle these emotions, why he hurts people.

A muffled noise repeated 3 times. Another sound followed it.

My body began shaking and something made my face move to look up. I saw a blur and heard more muffled sounds.

My body was suddenly lifted up and the door opened by a blur. We entered a place that was as dark as the room I just left. A dark large shape opened and something pushed me in it. Without walking, the ground began to move underneath me.

It didn't last long, I know because the shape opened again. With blurs taking me out of it. Another door opened, then another. Before I knew it, I was alone in a new dark place. No blurs or shapes were around me.

Still rubbing my hands I closed my eyes. Still seeing nothing. And eventually I embraced the darkness. Not realizing the horrors that laid in my mind.

Craig POV

The dark room and soft mattress made me feel guilty for not being able to fall asleep. Even with the sound of Tyler's soft breathes, and his arms around me in a protective manor. This is the first night in a while that I haven't been able to fall asleep peacefully. I have no reason for my inability to fall asleep. Especially since my best friend is here now.

Maybe that is what's wrong. My best friend is here, but he looked like he'd rather be anywhere but here. I only caught a glimpse of him since Tyler had a guard rush him into his room. I would've assumed he got into a fight because of his bloody knuckles, but I knew better from the look in his eyes.

He looked briefly at me, but it felt distant and cold. Like the kind of emotions you'd see in a stranger, desperate for help, but that has also given up.

It nearly destroyed me to see him that way, and to hardly understand why. Tyler mentioned that Delirious had brainwashed him. I don't believe that for a second, after about 2 years he went through with his capturers, he was so strong with helping us attempt to escape from Delirious. There's no way he'd let him get into his head.

So why, why had he looked so broken. What drove him to hurt himself?

Tyler told me to let him rest for tonight and allow him to accept that he was safe. But what says "You're safe here" like being left alone, essentially locked in a room.

The bed shifted as Tyler moved a little bit away from me. His hold on me loosened. This is way to convenient of an opportunity to pass up

Gently, I lifted his arm and dropped it down beside me. Giving me enough room to shift out of the bed. My anxiety spiked from the thought of him waking up and catching me. Which thankfully, he didn't.

I slipped out of the bed and walked carefully to the door and quickly left the room.

Looking down the hallway, I saw guards standing in their proper spots. None of them paid mind to me though. I'm almost sure they don't like me very much. But they have to act like it to be on Tyler's good side.

I walked around the corner and immediately felt frozen in my spot. Anxiety coursed through my body as I saw three guards passed out on the ground, and Evan's door wide open. Along with his window.

I must've yelled or screamed or something because as I dropped to the ground I could feel a familiar pair of arms wrap themselves around me. Regardless of the comforting act, I could only hear the pounding of my heart and feel my skin tingling and burning.

Once again, my best friend was gone.