Forbidden Lover ♡ pt.1

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Anastasia✨

"Are you glad to finally have your son home?" Dr. Marin asked. I was silent. I didnt understand why my mother put me in therapy, I was perfectly fine. "Anastasia?" She asked.

I looked away from her and out the window. "I'm only trying to help you through a difficult time-" "I don't need your help, I just wanna forget." I said. She was silent. "Then how would you move on?"

"By forgetting." I said. "I'm sorry..But you'll never truly forget about what happened to you. My job is to get you through it." She said. I just wanted to go home.

My Mama has been watching Kelly ever since we got out the hospital a couple weeks ago. The hospital wouldn't release us until Kelly's actual due date.

"Fine..Let's not talk about the baby. What about Zion?" She asked. I frowned. "What about him?" I asked. "Have you talked to him since the hospital?" I shrugged. "A little."

"Only a little? He's the father of your child-" "You don't think I know that?" I asked. She nodded her head.

"Your mother also said you've been separating yourself from everyone too, even your friends." "I just need space, that's all I want." I said. She nodded her head writing something down in her notes.

I rolled my eyes checking the time. "Whatever we talk about is staying in this room. I just want you to trust me." I was silent. She sighed and took her glasses off.

"I was just like you once, I was pregnant but I actually lost my baby at a young age. I thought the world was against me and judging.

I pushed a lot of people away, people that were important to me." She said. I looked away. "He um." I cleared my throat.

"He forced me to do a lot of things I wasn't comfortable with..." "You mean sex?" She asked. I nodded my head. "Yea." I whispered.

"He reassured me that he wouldn't hurt me or the baby..That it would be gentle." My voice started to crack. "Did it..Hurt?" She asked. I shook my head.

"No, but that doesn't change the fact that I was forced." I said. Dr. Marin nodded slowly. "Is that why you can't be around Zion?" I nodded my head.

"Yes and No. I'm afraid he would look at me differently, my father already did when he found out I was pregnant. I don't want them to feel sorry for me." I said.

Dr. Marin nodded. "That's understandable.. but in order to move on you could give him a call. It sounded like you really love him." I was silent.

"I'm sure he'll be excited to hear from you. You don't have to tell him everything just yet but talk to him. Ask how his day is going, baby steps." I nodded.

"And talk to your friends, family it will make you feel better." She said.

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"How was your session?" Mama asked me. I picked Kelly up and laid him on my chest. "It was okay." I said. She nodded slowly. "Uh, Zion called he's coming over to see Kelly later. He should show up any minute now." I nodded my head.

"Okay." Mama nodded her head and turnt around about to walk out. I sighed. "Mama." I said. She turnt around raising her eyebrows. "Thank you." I said. She smiled.

"No problem baby."

She walked out my room closing the door behind herself. I walked back to the door and opened it wide before walking to my bed. I laid down and started rubbing Kelly's back.

He sleeps on and off a lot, and wakes up at six in the morning everyday. Let's just say I don't get any sleep at all. I laid back on the headboard closing my eyes when the doorbell rang.

It had to be Zion. I sighed and sat up laying Kelly in his crib. I fixed the small camera above his crib and grabbed the small video monitor. I cut it on and looked at Kelly on the small screen.

I walked down the stairs and saw Zion in the living room waiting for me. "Hey." He said. I smiled a little. "Hi, he's upstairs." I said. He nodded and stuffed his hands in his pockets following me upstairs in my room.

"Your Mom let me in." I nodded. "Yea she told me you'll come by." I said. Zion leaned against the crib looking over Kelly. I sat on the edge of my bed watching him.

Its like he turned into a completely different person when he's around Kelly. All smiles and kisses. "How are you?" I asked finally looking away from him. He looked back at me. "I'm fine, you?" He asked. I shrugged.

"Feeling better." I said. "I'm glad to hear that, for a minute I thought you'd hate the fact that I'm over here." I frowned looking up at him. "No that's not the problem." I said. He raised a brow.

I sighed. "I just needed some time to myself, away from everyone. But I didn't wanna push you away.  I said. He turnt and sat beside me. I looked into his eyes. "Then why did you?" He asked.

I shook my head. "I'm sorry." I said. He slowly reached for my hand and I let him take it. "You can talk to me about anything." He said. I smiled. "I know..But this is something I wanna do alone." He nodded his head.

"Okay, you can tell me when your ready." My smile widened.

"Thank You."  

"No problem Princess." He locked our fingers together. I laid my head on his shoulder as kissed my forehead.

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