Illegal Moves

Chapter 28

Iona's POV

"I'm sorry but you are having a miscarriage," The doctor explains to me after they check me into a room and I am settled into the bed with a hospital gown on. "Now since you are almost five months along, you are going to have to push the stillborn fetus out. It wont hurt like labor but it will feel like a big tampon is coming out of you. The fetus will be able to lay in your hand, that's how small it is. The faster we get it out of you, the faster your body will begin to heal. Do you want to get it over with now?" The female doctor asks me.

I can't even answer her right away. How can she just ask me all these questions when she just told me my baby is dead and that I still have to give birth to it? I don't even know how to act. I just stare at the doctor, not saying anything.

"How about I give you and the father some time alone," The doctor suggests.

"I'm not the father," Aleks corrects her quickly. I burst out crying at his words. This baby was what broke us up in the first place because he wasn't the father and now there was no baby anyway.

"I'll leave you guys alone for a bit," the doctor leaves the room.

Aleks comes and sits on the edge of the bed and wraps his arms around me. I jerk out of his arms.

"Don't touch me! You never wanted me or this baby! It's gone now, you've got what you want so just leave!" I shout, crying even more.

"Iona stop," I keeps pushing at him even though he tells me to stop. "No, Iona stop, just stop and calm down," I finally stop pushing at him and I just sag against his body in defeat. He strokes my hair to calm me down. "The doctor is going to come in shortly and you have to do what needs to be done and then you will be alright," He tells me and I just nods against his chest. The doctor and a nurse re enter the room.

"Sir, if you're not the father I am going to have to ask that you step out while we do this," The doctor tells Aleks.

"I understand," He tells the doctor. He pulls me off of hom. "You're going to be alright, remember that," He tells me and leaves the room.

After the birth, the doctors did some tests on me and I have to stay at the hospital until the results come back. They gave me some medicine to stop the bleeding and sleeping pills.

When I wake up it's no longer night time. Once the shock of everything went away, a tiny tiny tiny bit of me was relieved. I wasn't ready to be a mom, I mean yeah sure I can take care of Jack, Megan, and Adeline, but I don't pay for their things. I'm not mentally or financially ready for a baby, especially one that was conceived when I was raped. I big part of me is still so devastated because in almost five months, the baby just becomes a part of you and I had accepted that fact that I was going to be a mom and it was kind of exciting but in the end it is probably for the best.

I look around the room. Aleks is sitting in the chair beside my bed asleep. I never would have thought that I would ever talked to him again and now when I look at him, I know that I want to repair the damage between us and now that I'm not having a baby, I think it will be easier. There isn't a TV in my room so I just lay and stare at Aleks.

After a while Aleks wakes up. "Morning," I tell him. He just smiles and sits upright, trying wake up and not be sleepy.

"How are you feeling?" he asks me in a sleepy voice.

"Fine, I'd be better if I had breakfast," I say trying to laugh.

"Oh, I'll go get you some," He says, hopping up quickly.

"Hey Aleks?" I say when he gets to the door.

"Huh?" He says raising his eyebrows.

"I'm really glad you're here," I say smiling. He just smiles back and heads out the door.