Chessa - Why does it have to be like this

I forgive you

Tessa:

Ugh. I really didn't want to talk to Chance right now. He was being a pain in the ass.

"Please Tess, can I talk to you for a second?" he pleaded.

"What?" I said bluntly.

"I'm so sorry babe. I'm sorry that I reacted this way, but I didn't know what to do. I finally found someone I really love and you... you have..." he stuttered.

"Cancer Chance. I have cancer" I finished.

"Yeah..." he said softly.

"Look, if all you're doing is pitying yourself or me, then don't talk to me." I decided.

"Tess..." he looked at me with his beautiful eyes.

I bit my lip, trying to hide my tears. I love Chance, and I knew what he was doing was wrong, but I can't let him go again.

"I'm sorry" I cried, as I ran up to him and hugged him.

I could sense his smile as he hugged me back and kissed the top of my head.

"Come on, let's go get sushi or something" he planned.

We went and got sushi. Along the way we talked about my cancer. I told him to be open with his feelings, and he was. He said that he would be by my side for the whole journey, and no matter what he would always loved me.

It was at that point when I realised that I didn't have long to live. Sure, there was a slight chance I would survive, but luck is never on my side. If I died in the next week, there would be so many things that I would regret. I knew I would get really sick soon, and I would be in so much pain. 

"Can we go home?" I asked Chance in the middle of his sentence.

"Yeah, sure" he said worriedly, paying and getting his stuff.

We walked home in silence. He put his arm around me, and for a second I wanted to shrug it off. 

Chance:

Tessa was really quiet on the way home. I didn't want to ask her about it in case it made her more upset, so I just left it. Once we got home, Tessa ran up to her room, and her door closed with a bang.

"What did you do this time" yelled Jake. I hadn't realised he was standing there.

"I didn't do anything. She was quiet the whole way home" I insisted.

He gave me a dirty look and went up the stairs to Tessa's room.

Jake:

F*cking Chance. Always making a mess of things.

"Tess?" I said as I walked into her room.

"What?" she sniffled.

"What did Chance do?" I demanded.

"Nothing. Stop blaming him for stuff" she argued.

"Then what's wrong?" I asked.

"Just given myself a reality check. I'm going to die soon and there's a heap of things I will regret not doing." she cried.

"Hey... it's alright. Why don't we do them?" I said.

"Like, actually?" she asked, showing some interest.

"Yeah. It'll be fun. Everyone can come and we can do whatever you've wanted to do. That way, if you do pass away, which you won't, you'll have literally no regrets" I explained.

"Thankyou thankyou thankyou" she squealed, hugging me.

"It's alright" I laughed "Make a list of things you want to do."